what a sucky day

[elvendoll]

it started off last night... i was in recovery mode for most of the day - just above half-functional.
made a point of going to revere, and even though there weren't a lot of people there, it was nice to just be out of the house...
only when i got back, and started going to bed, i realized i wasn't sleepy at all. not a good thing : /. i read for a while, and then turned out the light and forced myself to try and fall asleep.
i did, but not for long. all night i kept having really really weird dreams, most of which would wake me up in one way or another. like really annoying things - like in one dream, there were branches going through my room, and on those branches were two over-sized squirrels (they were cat-sized), and they kept jumping down onto the bed and trying to head-butt me off the bed. and whenever they shook me enough, i'd wake up. in another dream, again, i was sleeping in the room, and realized there were two people, dressed up as little forest animals (like full-body furry suits) having an argument in the corner of the room... and then one of those people screamed, and i woke up!
then, i got up extra early to make sure s. was up, and my tummy started turning in all sorts of weird ways.
not fun at all : /
i stayed in bed with it until it was time for work, and called in to work from home - i just didn't feel steady enough for the drive...
spent most of the day in a half-haze... a lot of it physical, and some emotional...
bill was in the area and stopped by for lunch, too, and that had its ups and downs.
after 5 i just vegged in front of the tube. i was still feeling out of it, and watched the second half of gladiator, some buffy rerun, and then most of Alegria, which was supposed to be the highlight of my evening. unfortunately, i think i fell asleep just past halfway through it : /
of course after the nap, any plans to go anywhere else got squashed, because post-nap yulia is not a social creature...
in retrospect, i think i should have tried to go for a walk, or at least sit on the back porch, after 5, but hindsight is always 20/20.

something odd: little girl caught two mice today. well, as well as she can catch mice, as she's very good at catching them, but doesn't know how to kill them, so she either plays with them for 4-5 hours and kills them through exhaustion, or we need to catch the mouse as she's playing with it and throw it out. but, bottom line is that these are the first mice we've seen in months, and they were both very tiny (and really cute!), which makes me worried that a mommy mouse just had a litter somewhere that's very close to our apartment (like behind a wall or something), hopefully, if there's any more, little girl will get them soon *crosses fingers*

Comments

[jacasimov.livejournal.com]

I used to have a hard time sleeping; it was after a really stressful situation that was constantly occupying my daytime thoughts. I had stress dreams because of this, much like the ones you describe, and they kept me from getting fully rested. The next evening, after feeling edgy and concerned about my sleep cycle all day, I went to bed again, only then it was harder to sleep and the dreams got harder to sleep through. Eventually, I got so whacked out from lack of rest and worry about lack of rest that I was a mess all day long (it just takes a few days of poor sleep to mess up everything). I guess what I'm saying is that, if not sleeping well is having an adverse affect on your day-to-day life, you should look into it further, if you haven't all ready. I fixed mine, the first time this happened, by taking a floral compound from a health food store and it worked fairly well. Initially, I had tried drugging myself with alcohol to put myself to sleep, but that really only compounded the problem. The second time, the situation was a lot worse so I ended up with a Xanax (sp?) prescription. I only took the stuff until I got back into my regular sleep cycle (because they say it's highly addictive, though I never felt I had to have it) and now I'm back to sleeping fine, all things considered.
I just read your journal and thought uh-oh, this sounds familiar and decided to add my two cents in, I hope that that's OK. My apologies if I misread, and that this is not an ongoing problem.

Also, I had a cat that did the same thing. I eventually ended up catching the mice in little, plastic "live traps" and setting them free outside. But of course, they knew where they live so I think they always came back. I finally got a used aquarium (without water, of course) and kept the ones that I caught in there like pets. (They were really cute mice, I couldn't kill them, myself.) Oddly, they behaved just like store bought mice, only they were harder to catch.

OK, I just have all the answers this morning. I'll shut up now.

:)

[elvendoll.livejournal.com]

my sleeping problems are definately stress-related, as they get worse as i stress more, but i usally take the "i'll try to fix the stressors" approach to fixing the problem... i do, however, have st. john's wort, which i try to take regularly when i find myself in a downward spiral, and (mind over matter or not) it seems to help.

as to the mice, i don't know if they'd want to come back after being "played with" by a cat for a while.. and she's a damn good mouser, so i have no doubt she'll catch them again if they did... (for a while, i had this theory that she was actually the cause of the mouse problem in the house, as at least once she's brought a mouse in from outside, and played with it in the kitchen - it made me wonder how many got away from her en route to the apartment, but these two little ones were definately not brought in by her). jokingly, we also contemplated feeding the mice to my roomate's snake (which does not live in our apartment yet), but i wouldn't think that to be very safe, as you never know if these buggers have eaten any poison...