i'm going to babble...
Oct. 3rd, 2000 12:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendoll...because i don't feel like starting on homework just yet...
not the most productive thing, i know, but hey, there's worse things...
so this may be TMI, but i've very happy right now cuz my period started today...
whenever its late i get really scared/stressed.. and no matter how much i tell myself its just my body fucking with me, it still flips me out...
hell, it used to flip me out before while i was still a virgin! i'd get super paranoid and start having these dreams that somehow someone would get into my room and have sex with me while i am sleeping...
*shudder*
but, on the other hand, the relief after the stress does help me deal with the cramps better : )
also makes me glad i had decided to come home last night - driving long distances with cramps isn't one of the joys of life...
but i am also glad i went down there to spend time with my family...
i can't even begin to describe how wonderfully supportive they are... it totally made me realize that i really need to do all that i can to force myself to stick through school... from the way my mom is so understanding of what i am going through right now, to my stepdad's quiet aproval and my grandfather's caring check-ins.
and abigail is just so precious...
ont he way home i was thinking about just why i got so attached to her... i mean i've only seen her 4 times now... but i am deifnately very connected ot her, and love her very much... but i was wondering why that is...
i mean there are plenty of babies out there... and it makes me wonder if its knowing that she's my sister thats making the difference, or if there's something more to it...
well,time to start the battle again...
not the most productive thing, i know, but hey, there's worse things...
so this may be TMI, but i've very happy right now cuz my period started today...
whenever its late i get really scared/stressed.. and no matter how much i tell myself its just my body fucking with me, it still flips me out...
hell, it used to flip me out before while i was still a virgin! i'd get super paranoid and start having these dreams that somehow someone would get into my room and have sex with me while i am sleeping...
*shudder*
but, on the other hand, the relief after the stress does help me deal with the cramps better : )
also makes me glad i had decided to come home last night - driving long distances with cramps isn't one of the joys of life...
but i am also glad i went down there to spend time with my family...
i can't even begin to describe how wonderfully supportive they are... it totally made me realize that i really need to do all that i can to force myself to stick through school... from the way my mom is so understanding of what i am going through right now, to my stepdad's quiet aproval and my grandfather's caring check-ins.
and abigail is just so precious...
ont he way home i was thinking about just why i got so attached to her... i mean i've only seen her 4 times now... but i am deifnately very connected ot her, and love her very much... but i was wondering why that is...
i mean there are plenty of babies out there... and it makes me wonder if its knowing that she's my sister thats making the difference, or if there's something more to it...
well,time to start the battle again...
