i was going to be such a good kid...
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elvendoll...and go to both my classes, and study for the psych test in between them.
but bill's toothache got really bad at work : (
so instead of going to my first class, i drove him to gentle dental.
and am not going to go in to school early to study there, as that would up parking fees.
hrmph.
but, on the good news, after i still couldn't fall asleep last night i picked up a book and read... and it felt so good!
it sucks because when i am in school i seem to be always behind in some hoework or other, and i always feel like i can't read for pleasure until my homework is odne, so i don't get to read for pleasure.
but last night i decided that i'm going to put that theory aside for around a half hour every night, and actually read...
this should be a good resolution : )
and i so can't wait till tomorrow, when the cramps subside...
this contstant, nagging, pain thing just gets old really quick!
and as for the dream thing... i think my subconscious is just fuct.
its bringing up x's in non-sequential order.
first it was brendon.
then it was the disturbing dream of running into christoph in central square, him kissing my knee for some reason... and then me not being able to find my house...
and then last night it was zak,
we were chatting over some telnet-esque system, and he was coming to visit. coming to visit me. now... trips like that, or near that, have taken place. the lesson we learned was that they're fucked up. they never worked right, and i think we've both avoided them since my senior year in high school, not to mention that we haven't done anything 'romantic' in like 3 years now...
...but in the dream he was so excited about coming to see me...
...and i was apprehensive about it, because of bill (last time zak was on the east coast IRL, he was going to come visit, but inconspiciously couldn't do it after finding out i had a boyfriend *smirk*)
and then, for some reason, ym stepdad's mom was involved... and she was causing some sort of drama because she didn't think zak should come visit.
..i don't remember what it was exactly, just that i was pissed at her for not minding her own bussiness..
*sigh*
c'est la vie.
i just kinda wish it would stop.
i mean what next? dreams of MUN conferences and my first kiss? really...
but time for some last minute cramming...
but bill's toothache got really bad at work : (
so instead of going to my first class, i drove him to gentle dental.
and am not going to go in to school early to study there, as that would up parking fees.
hrmph.
but, on the good news, after i still couldn't fall asleep last night i picked up a book and read... and it felt so good!
it sucks because when i am in school i seem to be always behind in some hoework or other, and i always feel like i can't read for pleasure until my homework is odne, so i don't get to read for pleasure.
but last night i decided that i'm going to put that theory aside for around a half hour every night, and actually read...
this should be a good resolution : )
and i so can't wait till tomorrow, when the cramps subside...
this contstant, nagging, pain thing just gets old really quick!
and as for the dream thing... i think my subconscious is just fuct.
its bringing up x's in non-sequential order.
first it was brendon.
then it was the disturbing dream of running into christoph in central square, him kissing my knee for some reason... and then me not being able to find my house...
and then last night it was zak,
we were chatting over some telnet-esque system, and he was coming to visit. coming to visit me. now... trips like that, or near that, have taken place. the lesson we learned was that they're fucked up. they never worked right, and i think we've both avoided them since my senior year in high school, not to mention that we haven't done anything 'romantic' in like 3 years now...
...but in the dream he was so excited about coming to see me...
...and i was apprehensive about it, because of bill (last time zak was on the east coast IRL, he was going to come visit, but inconspiciously couldn't do it after finding out i had a boyfriend *smirk*)
and then, for some reason, ym stepdad's mom was involved... and she was causing some sort of drama because she didn't think zak should come visit.
..i don't remember what it was exactly, just that i was pissed at her for not minding her own bussiness..
*sigh*
c'est la vie.
i just kinda wish it would stop.
i mean what next? dreams of MUN conferences and my first kiss? really...
but time for some last minute cramming...
