morning thoughts...

[elvendoll]

....today feels like a Friday.
and i really wish it was Friday already.

class was ooky last night...
i dozed off again, but i don't think i missed much. the professor is just a very sucky lecturer... he doesn't enunciate well, phrase his thoughts efficiently or organize his thoughts a lot. and sometimes, he says stuff that makes me think he doesn't know what the hell he's talking about.
he also didn't have my paper graded. its not unexpected, i'll just be slightly more twitchy until the grade comes in.
the final review is weird. it really skims a lot of topics, and i'm not sure how much deeper the test will go - then again, how much depth can 30 multiple choice questions have?
there will be two essay questions - he pretty much told me what the five topics will be, and right now, i'm thinking i'll do one on mood disorders and one on eating disorders - i finished those chapters last week, so the stuff has spent more time twirling around my head.

i'm royally unhappy with my financial situation.
i really thought i'd be in the clear by now, and i'm not.
i know one of the big strainers is school - the two classes cost me $1100, but, that really shouldn't be making or breaking me. another one is how screwy the bills situation has been. i know i've paid over a grand in bills since June. i know that how screwed up they are is partially my fault. i know that in theory, i could try to sit down and straighten everything out. but i can't. for one, i'm still flippy over the way they got handed over, and on another, i know i've been bending over backwards to put money in, and though the other people that owe $$ may feel like they're doing the same, the numbers are way off. and while i'm annoyed at the "bill's situation" its not personal... if numbers get tallied, i don't know if i could keep that at arm's length.
but yeah, bad place financially right now.

which, of course, is not going to affect my plans to travel next month.
i made a decision, and i will bend over backwards to stick to it. travelling is a priority, and if it means i'll be broke(r) for the next month+, that's priorities at work.
its also not stopping me from planning a getaway for labor day weekend. its not definite yet, and if it happens, it'll definitely be budget-travel, but a getaway sure sounds nice right now.
i remember my last visit to that city. evenings spent sitting in the old city, writing and people watching... poking my nose into a punk bar - sitting down for a beer and taking in being alone in a loud & crowded place... how cute & quaint it was in the daytime...

i'm debating going out tonight, but haven't made up my mind yet.
cabin fever is weird.

and speaking of cabin fever, i'm getting worries i set aside too much time for studying this weekend. i have plans for tomorrow night & saturday evening, but i'm getting worried that i might go batty saturday afternoon. on the other hand, if i don't study, i'll be batty, too.

i'm also craving a trip to my favorite sushi place in NYC. iggee25, are you hearing this?

today is a day i'm glad i started using my domain for my primary email. my primary shell account is down, but my email has been redirected to another one, and i'm not twitching : )

moo.