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as most entries at work, this'll prolly span some time.
i am just very bored.
i should be in a good mood, but for some reason it isn't kicking in. i think i need longer of a weekend : )
but i am far from feeling bad. i signed official paperwork today, and was told that i am now tech support/MIS-in-training. this was talked about on friday, and now its final : )
and its good to know that i'm fully employed now, too : ) i even have my name programmed onto my phone : )
of course next comes decorating my cube. i'm thinking of getting two or three textile posters to put on my cube : )
i also have a mini-disco ball, but i can't get it to stay up on the wall yet : /
funny thing, barnz gave me some speakers to i could play mp3's... only when i went to plug them in i realized my computer doesn't have a sound card : /
so much for that idea, at least for the time being : )
& i do prefer having a rolling-ball mouse to a sound card, sad as that may be.
overall life is going good.
i had a good weekend.
things with bill are going well, too. now that i am not stranded at home all day i spend more time at home doing home things rather then expecting attention from him, and i know that was a problem before. i kinda would still like it if we spent a little more time together, but now i have more patience to wait till it just happens rather then sitting there staring at him & hearing the seconds tick by.
speaking of patience... i think i was seriously traumatized by my shower this morning. just because a morning shower should not become an exercise in anger management, and thats what mine turned out to be :/
max had bought a new showerhead & put it in.
it reduced the water pressure by like 50%, and to top that off, its nozzle is wider, and sprays out. so basically there was circle of near-mist with a foot radius and my head in the middle. i was running late, and couldn't get the damn thing to spray enough water onto my head to actually soak through my (thick) hair. i was near tears. i wanted to destroy the fucker. i actually even tried pulling it off.
nothing helped.
shower just took longer then it should have, and left me emotionally cripled rather then refreshed.
i don't care if i have to kill to have that thing taken off. there's just no way its staying.
its so bad, even now, writing this, that rage is back. its like this primeal, tantrum-esque rage during which i have to stop myself from using violence to stop whats bugging me. showers to me are moments of peace and relaxation, and that thing ruined mine.
and now i am having a hard time getting my defense system down.
evilt houghts of max refusing to take it down & me having to fight for it are coming to mind.
*sigh*
i think i am going to ask bill if he'd talk to him. i would not want to lose my shit in front of max over a showerhead, and i am close to that just sitting in my cube.
me?? issues?! never!!
also, i got cleared to have friday off : )
and i didn't use a big lie, either : )
now i will get to go out to lunch with stasia and then drive to jersey for the long weekend : )
and i just found out that not only did my stepdad get a (really) nice laptop last week, he also set up a cable modem. so now i won't be twitching because of download speeds while i am over there : )
i am just very bored.
i should be in a good mood, but for some reason it isn't kicking in. i think i need longer of a weekend : )
but i am far from feeling bad. i signed official paperwork today, and was told that i am now tech support/MIS-in-training. this was talked about on friday, and now its final : )
and its good to know that i'm fully employed now, too : ) i even have my name programmed onto my phone : )
of course next comes decorating my cube. i'm thinking of getting two or three textile posters to put on my cube : )
i also have a mini-disco ball, but i can't get it to stay up on the wall yet : /
funny thing, barnz gave me some speakers to i could play mp3's... only when i went to plug them in i realized my computer doesn't have a sound card : /
so much for that idea, at least for the time being : )
& i do prefer having a rolling-ball mouse to a sound card, sad as that may be.
overall life is going good.
i had a good weekend.
things with bill are going well, too. now that i am not stranded at home all day i spend more time at home doing home things rather then expecting attention from him, and i know that was a problem before. i kinda would still like it if we spent a little more time together, but now i have more patience to wait till it just happens rather then sitting there staring at him & hearing the seconds tick by.
speaking of patience... i think i was seriously traumatized by my shower this morning. just because a morning shower should not become an exercise in anger management, and thats what mine turned out to be :/
max had bought a new showerhead & put it in.
it reduced the water pressure by like 50%, and to top that off, its nozzle is wider, and sprays out. so basically there was circle of near-mist with a foot radius and my head in the middle. i was running late, and couldn't get the damn thing to spray enough water onto my head to actually soak through my (thick) hair. i was near tears. i wanted to destroy the fucker. i actually even tried pulling it off.
nothing helped.
shower just took longer then it should have, and left me emotionally cripled rather then refreshed.
i don't care if i have to kill to have that thing taken off. there's just no way its staying.
its so bad, even now, writing this, that rage is back. its like this primeal, tantrum-esque rage during which i have to stop myself from using violence to stop whats bugging me. showers to me are moments of peace and relaxation, and that thing ruined mine.
and now i am having a hard time getting my defense system down.
evilt houghts of max refusing to take it down & me having to fight for it are coming to mind.
*sigh*
i think i am going to ask bill if he'd talk to him. i would not want to lose my shit in front of max over a showerhead, and i am close to that just sitting in my cube.
me?? issues?! never!!
also, i got cleared to have friday off : )
and i didn't use a big lie, either : )
now i will get to go out to lunch with stasia and then drive to jersey for the long weekend : )
and i just found out that not only did my stepdad get a (really) nice laptop last week, he also set up a cable modem. so now i won't be twitching because of download speeds while i am over there : )
