in russian, there is one word to describe my state right now...

razvezlo

i don't think an full translation is possible.
its slang for being sick, and means something along the lines of what plastered does to the connotation of being drunk.
and let me tell... it sucks!
even dayquill isn't doing its job... i feel like a total wreck. bad enough to gargle for the first time in at least 4 years (for some reason, i absolutely hate gargling and avoid it all all costs). but i just so need to get better before tomorrow night.
if course i am sure that not having gotten sleep last night isn't doing anything for me. but one of my nostrils felt likeit was cemented shut, and bill's snoring just would not cease. usually, i can deal with just one of those factors, but combined they kept me barely dozing all night.
so basically i've been a wreck all day and have yet to start cleaning. : /
bill just got up like an hour ago, so hopefully once he starts cleaning i will find some energy to get our rooms at least tidied.
bleagh.

and you know, i was going to write more, but the fuzzies took it all away. *grumble*

its a 'why me' sort of day...

not only am i feeling sick beyond shit, bill & i got into a fight.
we're okay now, only i am all kinds of rattled up. so now instead of being able to go to sleep like i was looking forward to, i gotta sit and wait out while my stomach & other innards come down from the stress.
*grumble*
i am just way too nonfunctioning to be able to deal with emotional shit, too : (