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lately, i've been feeling like i'm in hibernation... like i'm just riding out the low tide...
i know this isn't the healthiest thing to do, and i know it doesn't make me happy, but i feel like i don't have it in me to pull myself into gear right now. i know, in theory, that the longer i wait, the more time i lose, and the harder it may be to get back into the swing of things, but that knowledge isn't doing much.
overall, i haven't been doing much at all these past couple of weeks. dropped into the club on wendsday - it was really dead, and i don't think i lasted till midnight - it was good to be out, but i wasn't feeling too social, and not being social made me feel self-conscious. went to coffee last night, for the first time in months, and that turned out to be a much better experience, so maybe i'll start popping by there more often : ) aside from that, though, i've been just vegging a lot.
i'm really looking forward to this weekend, and expecially sleeping in tomorrow morning : ) i don't have plans for tonight as i was keeping the evening clear for last minute plans - now i'll get to wonder if that turned out to be a mistake. i guess worst case scenario, i'll end up at the club (and hopefully, there'll be a nice signal to noise ratio).
i guess i've just been feeling very disconected lately, both from people and emotions. its even hard to get excited about the trip to jamaica, which is prolly pretty damn pathetic.
but, (and i know this from experience) much worse things happen. i am glad to be coasting through, glad to be sleeping in tomorrow, glad to be going to a party tomorrow night, glad to be going to my parents' house on sunday, glad to be seeing NYC and eating sushi tuesday.
yes.
i know this isn't the healthiest thing to do, and i know it doesn't make me happy, but i feel like i don't have it in me to pull myself into gear right now. i know, in theory, that the longer i wait, the more time i lose, and the harder it may be to get back into the swing of things, but that knowledge isn't doing much.
overall, i haven't been doing much at all these past couple of weeks. dropped into the club on wendsday - it was really dead, and i don't think i lasted till midnight - it was good to be out, but i wasn't feeling too social, and not being social made me feel self-conscious. went to coffee last night, for the first time in months, and that turned out to be a much better experience, so maybe i'll start popping by there more often : ) aside from that, though, i've been just vegging a lot.
i'm really looking forward to this weekend, and expecially sleeping in tomorrow morning : ) i don't have plans for tonight as i was keeping the evening clear for last minute plans - now i'll get to wonder if that turned out to be a mistake. i guess worst case scenario, i'll end up at the club (and hopefully, there'll be a nice signal to noise ratio).
i guess i've just been feeling very disconected lately, both from people and emotions. its even hard to get excited about the trip to jamaica, which is prolly pretty damn pathetic.
but, (and i know this from experience) much worse things happen. i am glad to be coasting through, glad to be sleeping in tomorrow, glad to be going to a party tomorrow night, glad to be going to my parents' house on sunday, glad to be seeing NYC and eating sushi tuesday.
yes.
