slowly but surely...

today is mostly a slow day, which is good, because i am slowed down not only by lack of proper sleep, but also by cold symptoms - runny nose, head feels heavy, eyes feel dry, body feels sore and just generally feeling slow.

i was looking at the reading communities on LJ, and saw someone post a list of all the books they have read in the past year - i tried to make my own, and i am sure there are some that were this year that i am forgetting about, but my list came up shorter then what i am comfortable with, so this leads to the first new year's resolution - to read more. and i think tonight is a good night to section off for that, as laying in bed sounds way too good to be wrong.
next thought is that i need to write more. i stopped writing because i was sick of coming out with mediocrity, but now i am faced with the fear that not writing has left me at a point below mediocrity, which is even worse. starting to write again will take some guts, though...
in theory, there are some more things that i want, but i am scared to make actual resolutions from them - things like going to the theater more, and just being more active in life in general...

as far as the actual new year's eve/day - all i can say is that life just never stops being interesting : )
i had taken monday off of work, and after a late start, adam and i did the necesary shopping and cleaned up a good portion of the house - aside from some notable "this is where things we don't have homes for got stuffed" places, the house actually looked clean : )
despite my worrying, party turnout was good, and people seemed to be having fun - which is what matters most. a partial resolution, though, is to, at some point, be actually ready by the time guests start showing up! *ducks*
thoughts on and notable memories from the party:
-kate made my world much much smaller by knowing 3 other guests that all came from very different places
-alcohol hit me, and some other people, a bit harder then usual
-next time scuba looks that drunk, i shouldn't hesitate about whether or not to send him straight to the bathtub. on a similar note, never say the word puke in the vicinity of really drunk people.
-some people leave some very impressive hickeys
-it kinda sucks to know your parents partied later then you did on NYE*

new year's day was mostly sucky. i was in a rotten mood for a good portion of the day, unhappy about a combination of things and letting it get to me. i think a lot of that is due to a personality flaw i've mentioned here before - when something bothers me, it takes me a bit of time to accept the situation - even if its not in my power to fix/change it. luckily, by the day's end, my mood improved, and my feeling of 'if the saying about how how spend your first day of the year is a reflection of the year to come is true, somebody should just shoot me and put me out of my misery' waned.

overall, i am glad i spent new year's surrounded by people enjoying themselves at my house : )

and very special thanks go out to skaven for going above and beyond the realms of helping, as well as peter for doing some of the same, and scuba for helping clean yesterday morning.

* i was also rather amused that my mom called my cell phone at 12:30 am - she wished me a happy new year, asked me if i was drunk, informed me that she was, and then we hung up after giggling about it a little bit. this, combined with the fact that they partied later, made me think two things - first, that maybe i was a little rash in writing off new year's with the family - i used to love the new year's parties at family friends' houses - i get along with my parent's friends, and have always had good times at the new year's parties aside from the year before last. but, from what i heard over the phone lines, this year's sounded just like the good old times - which i miss. the second is about how damn cool my mom is, and how lucky i am to have her. i remember when katya (who is the daughter of my grandma's best friend, who is only 4 years older then me, but has always been closer with my mom) used to tell me how lucky i am - and while i lived at home, i could never fully appreciate that. now, i do - i mean, we're really close and she actually listens to me, i can come to her with just about anything, and more often then not, her advice sounds frighteningly similar to tobi's, she finds me really cool clothes that i like (like my vinyl gown, or see-through armani dress, or... well, there's just a ton of examples), and she just accepts who i am...
yeah.

and i had other thoughts, too... perhaps they will resurface later...