today i am...

• sick
  
• cranky
  
• listless
  
• distracted
  
• antisocial
  
• grouchy
  
• irritable

and i am looking forward to getting home.

i wish my room was different.
i need to go through the stuff that i keep but don't use, and either find better homes for the items, or trash them. i need to get shelves for my dresser. i need to find a piece of furniture for the bay window section that will make me happy - and get actual curtains that i will like.
and if/when thats all done, i think i would actually have happy thoughts about my room : )

(and here i was going to write about some thoughts i had today about being content, and other thoughts about stupid people, LJ communities and sucking, but i don't feel like sharing anymore)

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tonight has been a quiet night at home...
i got in, watched some buffy reruns, and retired to my room to read. i propped up my pillow against the wall instead of trying to read laying down, so that my neck hurts less and i am less likely to dose off.
i am now almost halfway through the book.
i have finished the portion about lydia and julie, and it doesn't sit well with me - the tone never bothered me, the details didn't bother me - i ran through it - but something in the actions, in the implications bothers me. something about the way goldmund stayed, and behaved, and didn't behave strikes nerves in me that i can't quite pinpoint. something in the way he both "loved" lydia and resented her for not having sex with him and stayed anyways, something about the way he "loved" lydia but wooed julie, partially to make lydia jealous, and stayed there even though he knew it would end badly. something about how this process turned him from being a boy into being a man. i just want to figure out which chords its striking in me.
and odder yet, in that whole passage, goldmund reminded me of chrispie.

on a note of picturing characters from a book, i found a discussion of an mini-series based on atlas shrugged here, and "Christopher Walken would be a great Hank Rearden and Steve Bushemi would make an fantastic John Galt." really surprised me - i really like both actors, but from reading the book, both actors are too old and too short for the roles! i don't think it would be possible to portray the characters properly without getting the physical attributes of them right *scoffs*

and now i am in a mood to venture out, but not really out out - just to get out of the house for a bit, but its really too late to make plans, and to cold to just go for a walk.
on the good news, though, my cold is slightly subsiding - i hav sinus pain and pressure, but less runny nose, and my cough hasn't fully picked up yet... *knocks on wood*
hopefully, i'll be feeling well enough to venture out to the skating trip tomorrow *crosses fingers*