i don't feel like being coherent...

...so i'll just write random blurbs instead of a full entry...

• the sun was brutal this morning - made me (more) late to work, and i am still nauseous from it : /
  
• went to ceremony last night... spent most of the night sitting by her and had quite the swell evening, up until i let myself remember old anger & didn't come down from it nicely - but that was at the end of the night, and so it was still the most enjoyable time i've had at ceremony in quite a while - the music was really good, and i felt comfortable just sitting back and people-watching.
  
• had a really hard time waking up this morning - when i switched which way my head was facing, it put me much closer to the alarm clock, and this morning, hitting the snooze button worked itself into my dream, which made the snooze button much less effective. still, this is much better then having a really bad dream from hearing spud trying to dial out with a modem *gasp* sunday morning *shudder*
  
• i'm really scared to jinx my luck, but damnit, i am just too happy about this fact - looks like sometime over the weekend, the winds changed direction, and my room is no longer the coldest room in the house - i think the cold breezes played a large part in last week's cold, and i am glad thats passed (for now). sealing the rest of the windows should still be in order, though...
  
• one of my pet peeves is people who bid on ebay auctions way before the auction closes - other then not realizing that all that does is raise competition/price, is there any other reason for it? do people just somehow miss this simple principle?? *shakes head* and, on the note of consumerism, i emailed about buying this and got no response - guess that means i'm SOL...
  
• i'm finally starting to look forward to jamaice : ) two and a half weeks! *bounce* - this came when i was a bit miffed i'll be gone the weekend of the fetish flea - and then it hit me just what i'll be missing it for. because of this, though, i'm also giving more thought to arisia. we'll see...
  
• this week seems horribly long already...
  
• i'm grumpy today
  
• i'm reconsidering buying ice skates on ebay. bad yulia.
  

and i think i'm done for now...

*grumble*

i missed the ebay auction for the ice skates i wanted : /
i totally spaced, and now its totally screwing up my mood.

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i'm feeling somehow off...
i was doing ok up until the auction thing really pissed me off. and it also bothers me that it affected me so much - they're just ice skates. i've lived the past, what, 7 years without a pair - but then, i got stuck on a certain pair, and when i didn't get what i wanted, my mood went to shit. not really cool..
and i know there's a little more to it then that, but not stuff i feel like sharing. bottom line is that i'm feeling screwy, and looking through my past journal entries, that's pretty much how i'm feeling most of the time i update.
its like i have moments, hours, of doing okay, but i keep sinking back to this, and though i do think its good that this doesn't feel like the norm, its happening too often.
if i close my eyes, and click my heels together three times, will it be march????
over the weekend, i found myself angered by the fact that its cold outside - you know how in old movies, its dark out, and the wind is howling and its all foreboding? well, that's what it felt like to me - like somehow, it would be bad to go into it. and yeah, i know that's pretty sad...

and this is like a half hour-hour later... and all i can say is that i'm slowly developing an addiction to naked juice - the stuff is really yummy, and i really love the fact that it has absolutely no preservatives : )