not the happiest of entries

i'm just feeling rather exasperated at the moment.
i have just got in from a very nice time at an un-valentine's day dinner, but, i am really hating the concept of having to pack up & organize my thoughts, etc. right now.
i have no concentration level at all.
i remembered to grab my bag of clothes at her house, but neglected to take my fuzzy slippers, which were right next to the bag. second time i've felt like a complete moron during the evening. it wouldn't be so bad if i wasn't leaving for northern NH tomorrow, but i am : /
work has been stressing me out... i can't figure out how much is me, and how much is the actual volume/customers, but i feel like i'm on the wrong side of the critical mass of productivity & its angering me - i know that if i stressed less, i'd get more done : (
at some point during the day, i tried to return my mom's phonecall, got the answering machine, and in being swamped, hung up w/o leaving a message. i guess my mom was feeling sensitive or something, as that "scared" her, and she called me like 3 times during the evening - and i was either not near my phone (two times) or not in a mood to explain that i'm a noisy restaurant (the middle time) and by the time i called her back at 11, she was nearly frantic. and i was just not in a mood to be as understanding as i should have been...
and the whole packing thing...
i don't know if i will need to do laundry..
i can't decide which clothes to bring
or how much food i am going to need...
and its incredibly frustrating because i'm usually right on top of this shit - like at any other time, i have a mental list of everything i am going to need for at least a day before the actual packing... and trying to pull stuff out of my head and being unable to pull it together is really fucking frustrating.

its so tempting to put this off till tomorrow.
i think if i have my head on forwards, i could do it without any probs - i rarely pack for my mom's house until the day of the trip (after gtting home from work) and i packed for jamaica in less then an hour... but i am incredibly scared of being like this tomorrow, especially as the workday doesn't look like it'll be any less stressful...

but, on the good side, despite all my stressing, the today (after work) had come out quite well. i almost feel bad for being so happy that tobi overslept this morning, as it had allowed me to have something to wear tonight, even if i spent way too much time on what i could wear that wouldn't require her to attempt digging through my (overly messy) room, as without that, i know i would have felt much more awkward during the evening...

heh.
i'm really not as bad as i am sounding right now.
i am very aware that worse things happen, that this will pass (and the weekend aught to help that!) and that having gotten less then 4 hours of sleep last night is prolly kicking my butt a whole bunch... so, i will just end this at saying i had a rather enjoyabe evening despite stress-issues attempting to ruin it for me.

like you really want to see this...

i arrive Friday night, will have all day Saturday, Sunday and then Monday morning.
food:
cereal should suffice for non-communal breakfast stuff

i can bring pasta roni for one dinner, and trader joe's risotto for the second dinner.

i am really confused about lunch. how much will i want to eat? what will i want to eat?
so far, i am toying with pb&j, but am having a hard time coming up with other ideas... and i will need 2+ lunch/snack meals...

for clothes, i'll prolly just pack everything thats warm, and try to make outfits of it later *sigh* i do so much better with summer clothes!!

personally, i think this is really cute:

after months of being on the unemployed-techie list, my stepdad got a new contract.. and today, he sent out an mass email announcing the fact, with a picture of himself in his new office as an attachment - and in the background is his laptop, with a picture of debbie (my 10 year old sister) winking as the wallpaper : )