i'm such a bad kid...

...looks like i'm slacking on school already : /

i dropped off kira & ryan at manchaster airport at around 10:30 (*sob* i want a permanent kira here! *stomp*) and figured today would be a day to catch up on the dishes-monster in the kitchen, the ickypoopyness that is in the bathroom and the royal mess that was growing in my room and then doing homework - which is reading the catcher in the rye (which i started once, for the same professor, but didn't finish because i couldn't get into it).
well.
i had lunch and i vegged till nearly 5. in reality, i should have just followed some good advice & taken a nap, but i was being stubborn & tried to fight it. so instead, i wasted the time by vegging.
between 5ish and now, i've got one load that should be ready to come out of the dryer and another thats ready to go in there, i made barely-visible-to-anyone-else progress on my room, the bathroom is still ickypoopy, as the only change is that towels that had somehow migrated to the floor will be clean, and trashbags in the kitchen have been collected & are ready to be taken downstairs (by someone stronger then me).
hrmph.
i also wrote a 'journal entry' for class... and then roma called & talked me into going out for dinner with him. even though i'm not really hungry. but i haven't seen him since before the trip to arizona, and i totally spaced that his graduation ceremony was yesterday : /
so now i have to (in no particular order) change out of pajama bottoms, wake the fuck up and make myself look human before he gets here. if all goes well, i might also be able to squeeze some dishes in in that time, if only out of dread of seeing his facial expression upon walking in here, as he tends to be very wonderfully & brutally honest about such things (hrmmm.... maybe i should drag him to iarwain's house ; P ).
but yeah... between dinner & six feet under, i really don't see me doing my reading, and unless i get a miraculous burst of energy somehow, today will be an early bedtime day.

me=bad kid.
but, i did have an wonderful day yesterday : ) an entry with pictures should be coming soon : )

feeling chatty...

its both very nice & very odd to be home alone... i felt so bad over the week for feeling so people'd out, and i think today has definately been my cure. despite my grumpiness over not being as productive as i should've been earlier today, i feel pretty at peace right now, which means that i just really needed time to veg.
dinner (well, soup and ice cream : ) ) with roma was great - i really miss when we used to live a few blocks from each other & he'd come over for tea a couple of times a week... *giggle* and he sympathized with my 'russian boy in small class' problem : ) its a little odd knowing that he graduated - we met on the first day of CS class our freshman year.... and in a way, i'm envious. we both had our struggles with staying in school - and he dealt, and he accepted the possibility of a lower grade while i'd flip out & drop out. and will the cum laude that i plan on having on my diploma really matter?
*shrugs*
i guess my excuse always was that "i think its wrong to go to school just to get a diploma" and if/when found myself not dealing to the point of not being able to want to be in school & appreciate the classes, i dropped out. only its easy to say something like that and justify my inability to pull back, chill out and keep going.
and yeah, lots of food for thought there.
six feet under gave me some food for thought, too... and now i'm debating between doing some reading before bed or doing some of the dishes. *sigh*

and am itching to post pics from yesterday, but need to get permission first *looks at aim list impatiently*
its funny how transient certain things can be - at the time, i spent a fair amount of time stressing over how much behind (mymental schedule) we were running... and then a bunch more over whether or not everyone was enjoying themsleves, etc... but now, i think back, and its all happy memories of being in one of my happy spots... its odd how easy it is for certain places to become happy spots for me - this was my fourth or fifth visit to purgatory falls - and i'm not even sure when it became such a happy spot.
then again, i remember my first trip up there... with bugmanhai and iarwain... i wore my 'jane dress' because at the time, i didn't own any pants that were not pajama pants, and that dress was the closest thing to hiking clothes i had... and bill & i went swimming (*giggle* thats when i first realized he had manboobies) and brian was drinking chartreuce - which ended up doing a very good job at keeping the bugs away from him. definately a happy day : )
heh - montreal is another happy place, and i definately had a happy time the first i was spent a significant amount of time there on my own (as i'd been in the area with my parents when i was younger - but we mostly kept to the suburb my parents' friends live in).. i don't think i've ever hit as much of a manic stage as i did those 4-5 days...
cauldron farms is a happy place, and its definately gotten to be that over time - this last trip out there is the first one where i've gone without any hesitation or stress at all - but aside from fallout from the first trip, its always been a very relaxing and good time.
nantasket beach is a happy place, but i think thats because i love beaches at night, and its just the one i've been going to since i've moved here... (note to self: dig through to find when/how the first nantasket trip got organized)

happy thoughts : )

& hopefully i won't get in too much trouble in class tomorrow : ) and, hopefully the russian kid will know enought o stay away from me *crosses fingers*

oh... and i downloaded one of the songs from the quidam soundtrack a couple of days ago, and now i'm having major second thoughts about not seeing it when its in town.
only i looked at the prices, and cat1 is $65 and VIP is $165 - VIP rocked, but there's no way i can justify spending over half a planefar to california on it... and tickets have been on presale for so long i'm afraid cat1 seats will be on the sucky side (as sucky as CdS seats can get - which isn't very sucky, but....)
decisionsdecisions.

update: first mention of a nantasket trip in my sent mail is from 26 Jul 1998 ... now i'm kinda curious if that was the first trip, and who went...