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it's only Wednesday morning, and it's already been a long week - i am beyond ready for it to end. enough so that it took a huge amount of effort not to take a mental health day today, which, considering everything else, would've been a very bad thing.

the house is totally wrecked, i'm totally unprepared for the weekend and it feels like there's really no time out there to do any of the things i need/want to.

my body is rebelling against me. i had a very intense, 4 hour period yesterday. if it wasn't a coworker's last day, i would've gone home early because i was feeling so unfit for human consumption. i was shocked by how quickly it passed, though, and spent the majority of the evening with a beer in my hand.
today, i'm getting a bit of the heart-beating-is-sapping-all-my-energy thing - not as severe as last week, but grouped with feeling overwhelmed it's really not ideal.

i can't remember the last time i had a decent night of sleep - i'm really hoping this weekend changes that, as i tend to sleep better when camping, but truth be told, i am craving a weekend of being home alone - getting myself to vermont is going to take some effort.

but, overall, i think i'm okay - i have a very loving family, an amazing boyfriend, wonderful people in my life and i'm getting ready for a grand adventure.
i have one somewhat pricey and somewhat weird housing possibility that's acting as a good safety net, i emailed about one place this morning and sol3 reassures me more ads will be posted around the middle of July.
i think i'm fairly safe financially, and that's key.