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Oct. 17th, 2002 02:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendolli feel like a reheated corpse, up after spinning around in a grave for a couple of hours...
the sheer adrenaline from getting the plane tickets wore off and now i feel like i need sleep and only sleep. no good : (
today's all about needing to get my ass in gear.
i need to make leaps in homework.
i finished week 4, out of 12. there is a writing assignment for week 5, and then no more actual writing assignments for another few 'weeks', which means that i should buckle down and race through the stuff, to give myself time for a freak-out before the bigger writing assignments.
i need to figure out car stuff for when i'm in SD - all the rates i'm seen are similarly cheap, but i need to know how much extra each place will charge me for being under 24.
i need to get my winter vacation sorted out
i need to stop being panicky about the room swap and actually get stuff done for it.
i need to get my car looked at. last night, it started screaming at me. well, its just that the passenger door won't close all the way, and there's nothing physically there to keep it from closing. i'm thinking now, just taking it to a dealership Saturday morning isn't an option. i need to figure out where i can take it during a weekday, how to get along without it for a day or two, and hopefully not implode from the charges that'll cause.
and, i need to stop feeling stressy, panicky and overwhelmed. in the grand scheme of things, its not all that much. i just get overwhelmed by the idea of needing to get my ass in gear and procrastinate doing so. of course, having more energy would help, too...
to focus on the positive, though, i can't express in words just how happy and excited i am about the thanksgiving trip. its been almost 6 years since my last visit to southern california, and i didn't realize how appealing being there for a little bit feels. i'm full of memories of family trips to la jolla beach, of how everything looks around there. and i'm so excited to spend thanksgiving with kira's family, and to see people i haven't seen in years.
aside from kira, the person i saw most recently was kristine, and that was two and a half years ago. it will be really good to get some one on one time with her and hear details of how her life is going.
i saw nicola shortly after graduating HS, and from everything i know, her life's taken some rollercoaster swoops in the last 5+ years. this time, i'll get to see her and meet her 1 year old daughter. i can't wait : )
i haven't seen laura at all since mid-senior year, and we didn't do a very good job of keeping in touch - our lives have been on different tracks for a long time now, but i'm really looking forward to actually seeing her in the flesh and seeing how we interact one on one now. oddly enough, out of the whole gang, laura is the one that appears in my dreams most often (nevermind that there's usually an erotic aspect to her appearances).
i think the odds of seeing liz or angela are slim. liz never got back in touch with me after i talked to her last thanksgiving, and i'm not sure the air force will let her go home for the weekend. i should shoot her sister an email and check just in case, though. angela and i didn't really keep in touch after i moved away, and if i see her, it will be with laura... and although in theory, getting all of us together at once would be an interesting experience, i would really prefer to reconnect to each of them one on one.
my mom asked me whether i'd see zak. the thought hadn't even crossed my mind at that point, but i think i'm giving a loud 'nay' to that idea. how many times do i really need to be disillusioned by him to not want to go back for more? well, it looks like the last time may have been the magic number. and bottom line is that he never returned my last email. it was purposefully bratty, and i'm taking it as a sign of not wanting to deal with my shit. c'est la vie.
and writing this, i remembered sarah. and i don't know. being asked to justify my mental health rubbed me weird.
gah.
so my grandfather needs major heart surgery, and soon.
i've been recruited to scour the internet for the best place to get the procedure done.
talking to him, he said that the third best surgeon for it is in boston, and that he would be ok going to boston for the procedure. no chance in hell my mom would let that happen, but i wasn't going to say that. instead, i said 'yeah, and yulia(2) (my grandma's cousin that lives in salem) has an extra bedroom, so that could work out'. he comes back with 'why? they say i'll only be in the hospital for 5 days and then be ready to go home'. *blink* 'but where's ella (my grandma) going to be?' and he says 'oh yeah... i guess you get this better then i do'
*shakes head*
so the man was planning to drive to boston, get major heart surgery, step out of the hospital 5 days later and drive back.
ps. the icon is wishful thinking.
the sheer adrenaline from getting the plane tickets wore off and now i feel like i need sleep and only sleep. no good : (
today's all about needing to get my ass in gear.
i need to make leaps in homework.
i finished week 4, out of 12. there is a writing assignment for week 5, and then no more actual writing assignments for another few 'weeks', which means that i should buckle down and race through the stuff, to give myself time for a freak-out before the bigger writing assignments.
i need to figure out car stuff for when i'm in SD - all the rates i'm seen are similarly cheap, but i need to know how much extra each place will charge me for being under 24.
i need to get my winter vacation sorted out
i need to stop being panicky about the room swap and actually get stuff done for it.
i need to get my car looked at. last night, it started screaming at me. well, its just that the passenger door won't close all the way, and there's nothing physically there to keep it from closing. i'm thinking now, just taking it to a dealership Saturday morning isn't an option. i need to figure out where i can take it during a weekday, how to get along without it for a day or two, and hopefully not implode from the charges that'll cause.
and, i need to stop feeling stressy, panicky and overwhelmed. in the grand scheme of things, its not all that much. i just get overwhelmed by the idea of needing to get my ass in gear and procrastinate doing so. of course, having more energy would help, too...
to focus on the positive, though, i can't express in words just how happy and excited i am about the thanksgiving trip. its been almost 6 years since my last visit to southern california, and i didn't realize how appealing being there for a little bit feels. i'm full of memories of family trips to la jolla beach, of how everything looks around there. and i'm so excited to spend thanksgiving with kira's family, and to see people i haven't seen in years.
aside from kira, the person i saw most recently was kristine, and that was two and a half years ago. it will be really good to get some one on one time with her and hear details of how her life is going.
i saw nicola shortly after graduating HS, and from everything i know, her life's taken some rollercoaster swoops in the last 5+ years. this time, i'll get to see her and meet her 1 year old daughter. i can't wait : )
i haven't seen laura at all since mid-senior year, and we didn't do a very good job of keeping in touch - our lives have been on different tracks for a long time now, but i'm really looking forward to actually seeing her in the flesh and seeing how we interact one on one now. oddly enough, out of the whole gang, laura is the one that appears in my dreams most often (nevermind that there's usually an erotic aspect to her appearances).
i think the odds of seeing liz or angela are slim. liz never got back in touch with me after i talked to her last thanksgiving, and i'm not sure the air force will let her go home for the weekend. i should shoot her sister an email and check just in case, though. angela and i didn't really keep in touch after i moved away, and if i see her, it will be with laura... and although in theory, getting all of us together at once would be an interesting experience, i would really prefer to reconnect to each of them one on one.
my mom asked me whether i'd see zak. the thought hadn't even crossed my mind at that point, but i think i'm giving a loud 'nay' to that idea. how many times do i really need to be disillusioned by him to not want to go back for more? well, it looks like the last time may have been the magic number. and bottom line is that he never returned my last email. it was purposefully bratty, and i'm taking it as a sign of not wanting to deal with my shit. c'est la vie.
and writing this, i remembered sarah. and i don't know. being asked to justify my mental health rubbed me weird.
gah.
so my grandfather needs major heart surgery, and soon.
i've been recruited to scour the internet for the best place to get the procedure done.
talking to him, he said that the third best surgeon for it is in boston, and that he would be ok going to boston for the procedure. no chance in hell my mom would let that happen, but i wasn't going to say that. instead, i said 'yeah, and yulia(2) (my grandma's cousin that lives in salem) has an extra bedroom, so that could work out'. he comes back with 'why? they say i'll only be in the hospital for 5 days and then be ready to go home'. *blink* 'but where's ella (my grandma) going to be?' and he says 'oh yeah... i guess you get this better then i do'
*shakes head*
so the man was planning to drive to boston, get major heart surgery, step out of the hospital 5 days later and drive back.
ps. the icon is wishful thinking.
