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Jan. 6th, 2003 12:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendoll*bounce*
i am groggy as hell this morning, but my laptop came in *bounce* i feel like a little kid, because i can't get past "i really like it" and "it even has a purple nipple-mouse!"...
i won't get to fully play with it until tomorrow night, but that's ok, because i'm really excited to do the gift exchange with him tonight, and a trip to ceremony should be good for my sanity.
of course i'm a dumbass, and among the things i forgot this morning were pen & notebook for school.
the others were gift wrap and nutrigrain bars - i don't know where the hell my head was.
and yeah, tonight is the first class.
when i talk to the professor about working full time & find out if i can keep it.
i'm excited and nervous and glad to be this into starting a class, even if its for kinda-wrong reasons.
with all luck, i'll actually be awake by then.
and in retrospect, i had a very decent weekend.
the best part about hormone issues for me is that after i am done flipping out, the memory of having done so fades quickly. so now i remember getting buzzed at MR, having a great brunch on saturday, cleaning house & vegging around, having time-well-spent with him and a good evening with him. i think i definately needed those hugs. and bill lifted me up when saying goodbye - like arms almost outstretched, me 2 feet off the ground. i did not think i could miss a sansation like that as much as i have been - i think i almost melted onto the carpet when he set me back down. it really reminded me of the day, long ago and before we had started dating, that we went to hang out at a lake beach & he figured out that i really don't mind getting dunked as long as i get thrown up into the air first.
and of course that memory makes me look forward to summer. beltane, and then its all about trips to nantasket & purgatory falls and walden pond and stuff. yeah.
and yeah, as i said last night, i think i'm having a very decent fall/winter season, as far as those go.
i've definately had my moments, but i've been feeling fairly grounded... like there's still a safety net for me if i happen to fall. i know i will get very spazzed out and burnt out this month, but i really hope i will stay sane.
i think this year will involve a lot of pushing myself. i'm looking forward to it & am scared shitless all at the same time.
i am groggy as hell this morning, but my laptop came in *bounce* i feel like a little kid, because i can't get past "i really like it" and "it even has a purple nipple-mouse!"...
i won't get to fully play with it until tomorrow night, but that's ok, because i'm really excited to do the gift exchange with him tonight, and a trip to ceremony should be good for my sanity.
of course i'm a dumbass, and among the things i forgot this morning were pen & notebook for school.
the others were gift wrap and nutrigrain bars - i don't know where the hell my head was.
and yeah, tonight is the first class.
when i talk to the professor about working full time & find out if i can keep it.
i'm excited and nervous and glad to be this into starting a class, even if its for kinda-wrong reasons.
with all luck, i'll actually be awake by then.
and in retrospect, i had a very decent weekend.
the best part about hormone issues for me is that after i am done flipping out, the memory of having done so fades quickly. so now i remember getting buzzed at MR, having a great brunch on saturday, cleaning house & vegging around, having time-well-spent with him and a good evening with him. i think i definately needed those hugs. and bill lifted me up when saying goodbye - like arms almost outstretched, me 2 feet off the ground. i did not think i could miss a sansation like that as much as i have been - i think i almost melted onto the carpet when he set me back down. it really reminded me of the day, long ago and before we had started dating, that we went to hang out at a lake beach & he figured out that i really don't mind getting dunked as long as i get thrown up into the air first.
and of course that memory makes me look forward to summer. beltane, and then its all about trips to nantasket & purgatory falls and walden pond and stuff. yeah.
and yeah, as i said last night, i think i'm having a very decent fall/winter season, as far as those go.
i've definately had my moments, but i've been feeling fairly grounded... like there's still a safety net for me if i happen to fall. i know i will get very spazzed out and burnt out this month, but i really hope i will stay sane.
i think this year will involve a lot of pushing myself. i'm looking forward to it & am scared shitless all at the same time.
