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elvendollwhen i started taking st. john's wort this season, i bought one huge bottle for home and two smaller ones, for the car and the office.
i then made another smaller one to take to my mom's house, which eventually made a home for itself in the car.
when the one in the office ran dry, i brought up the spare car one, and when that was all gone, i brought the original car bottle up here. now, the trick is to take the two empty bottles, refill them from the giant one, and leave one in the car and one at![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sol3's.
one of the problems is that i tend to forget to take meds after lunch.
another one is that one i'm overdue, the depression kicks in enough where even getting up off the couch to get meds and water takes time and effort.
and another one is that with the busyness of the season, i haven't had time to eat full dinners each day this week, and i get really sick if i take st. john's wort on an empty stomach.
and those don't make a pretty combination.
i absolutely hate feeling depressed, almost as much as i hate it when i need to resolve an issue with someone and they're not around for me to do so. i hate feeling this down, i hate the lack of motivation, i hate knowing that its all chemical and i'm obviously not doing enough to change it. and, i still hate the fact that i need to take pills to get 'normal', that when i'm like this, i react differently to other people, that i'm letting my life slip past me.
can it be march, now?
i then made another smaller one to take to my mom's house, which eventually made a home for itself in the car.
when the one in the office ran dry, i brought up the spare car one, and when that was all gone, i brought the original car bottle up here. now, the trick is to take the two empty bottles, refill them from the giant one, and leave one in the car and one at
sol3's.one of the problems is that i tend to forget to take meds after lunch.
another one is that one i'm overdue, the depression kicks in enough where even getting up off the couch to get meds and water takes time and effort.
and another one is that with the busyness of the season, i haven't had time to eat full dinners each day this week, and i get really sick if i take st. john's wort on an empty stomach.
and those don't make a pretty combination.
i absolutely hate feeling depressed, almost as much as i hate it when i need to resolve an issue with someone and they're not around for me to do so. i hate feeling this down, i hate the lack of motivation, i hate knowing that its all chemical and i'm obviously not doing enough to change it. and, i still hate the fact that i need to take pills to get 'normal', that when i'm like this, i react differently to other people, that i'm letting my life slip past me.
can it be march, now?
