on another note...
Jan. 13th, 2004 11:33 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendoll...my grandmother called today.
at first, i thought it was just to chat - which is fairly uncommon, as she's scared of catching me at a bad time.
then, she tells me today is the 13th.
i pause, trying to remember the significance. January. then i panicked - i talked to my stepdad already, asked him for car advice, even! then, i remember that his birthday is on the 15th - and say that aloud. aloud, again, i realize the 13th, today, is my father's birthday, and ask her why that would matter to me.
she didn't give a clear answer, and changed the conversation to reminding me to call my stepdad on Thursday.
and in some ways, this very much sums up my grandmother and my family background.
my grandmother believes my mother tainted me against my father, no matter how much i tell her why i stopped communicating with him. my grandmother sympathizes with him because she has an easier time seeing my mother's faults then his, and projects that onto the situation; she had the best intentions in calling me, but it was the totally wrong thing to do, because it reminds me of how able she is at not listening to what i have to say when it doesn't fit with a not-entirely-related conviction that she holds mere weeks before i go on vacation with her and my grandfather.
at first, i thought it was just to chat - which is fairly uncommon, as she's scared of catching me at a bad time.
then, she tells me today is the 13th.
i pause, trying to remember the significance. January. then i panicked - i talked to my stepdad already, asked him for car advice, even! then, i remember that his birthday is on the 15th - and say that aloud. aloud, again, i realize the 13th, today, is my father's birthday, and ask her why that would matter to me.
she didn't give a clear answer, and changed the conversation to reminding me to call my stepdad on Thursday.
and in some ways, this very much sums up my grandmother and my family background.
my grandmother believes my mother tainted me against my father, no matter how much i tell her why i stopped communicating with him. my grandmother sympathizes with him because she has an easier time seeing my mother's faults then his, and projects that onto the situation; she had the best intentions in calling me, but it was the totally wrong thing to do, because it reminds me of how able she is at not listening to what i have to say when it doesn't fit with a not-entirely-related conviction that she holds mere weeks before i go on vacation with her and my grandfather.
