so sleeepy...
Feb. 15th, 2001 10:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendollwhy is it that when i actually want to sit down and write, i don't have the time, but when i can squeeze somet ime, i am usually too tired?!
its getting kind of frustrating!
overall, though, today has been a decent day... stress levels didn't reach their usual peak and i was quite happy about that : )
also got to use my newly acquired EZPass for the first time today : ) (its the tri-state's equivalent of the Fast Lane, only its exceted here, and Fast Lane thingies aren't accepted there... and as i go visit my family once in a while, i decided it'd be best to get something that would work for both). Its so damn refreshing not to be scrambling for change, and the hassle of having to stop and open your window, etc. i mean, in the grand scheme of life, its not big deal at all, just one of those tiny luxuries that makes me feel all fuzzy inside : )
and speaking of my family... they're evil tempters! they're going out to an all-you-can-eat sushi place in NY Sunday night, and are using that as leverage to convince me to come visit this weekend! ...really makes me wish the long weekends school afforded, too... cuz from what my mom says abi has grown up a lot since i last saw her (she can crawl now, can walk while holding on with only one hand, and picked up on a few really cute sing-along motions!) and i'd love to see her..
hell, between the wanting to see her & the sushi, i'm tempted to just go up saturday & come back sunday anyways... although i don't know if i'm tempted enough cuz the drives still intimidate me... we'll see though...
also i feel the need of spilling my gush towards bill & last night...
we didn't have any set plans & just kindof tossed ideas around a lot... neitherone of us care much aout the holiday, but for a bit, his lack of interest was disturbing. amusingly enough, after he called me at work to ask what i wanted to do, all that anxiety was lifted. i even told him during my drive home, that at this point i was put at ease enough that i'd be okay with not doing anyhting! in the end, though we settled on dinner. finding an italian place in this neighborhood, and that would seat was one hassle and a half! we ended up at a little place on main st. overall, the food wasn't fantastic and the prices were pricey.. but bill has this wondeful ability to set the rght nood and i had a really wonderful time : )
after dinner was more plans in flux. he wanted to stay home & i felt that i would rather go out. i was actually going to just stay homeout of the desire to make him happy, but he pretty much insisted i go out. i thought that was very sweet, and promised to come home soon. he mentioned somehting about maybe coming by, but he didn't sound sure at all.
and then this made my night - he did end up showing up... and to top it off, brought me a rose, too! : )
it just melted me : )
its funny how our relationship fluctuates - its like we go through stages as to who's flaws show more and hus need more work... and it creates some tension at first, but then gets worked out & tips over again. though i do gotta say he's a damn lot more patient with my faults then i am with his. definately one of those things i need to work on : ) but right now is definately a time when my faults are showing up more, and his patience and understanding and devotion have been making me melt for a couple of weeks now. i just feel so lucky to be with someone who's so wonderful to me!! and its really quite the motivation to fix my issues, too.. thiniing/knowing that i'm not makng him as happy as he makes me just sits there at the pit of me and will nag until the quirks get worked out.
heh.. and i think thats pretty much all of my life for right now. aside from being at work and coming home, i rarely have any significant attention span, and haven't really done anything new & exciting in some time now. whenever i get the spurt inspiration to write, i usually have intersting (well, to me) stuff i want to write about... but then the moment passes and its gone.
heh.. somehting amusing about my attention span - today, at th end of the day at work, i got asked how i like my new chair. *blink blink* new chair? soi go look in my cube, and lo and behold - better chair! and then i realize i've been sitting in it all day. and that when i came in this morning, putting my coat around it felt different. but at the time, i shrugged it &moved on - and prolly would never had realized that i now have a comfier chair if it wasn't pointed out to me!
so yeah.. me?? space cadet?! never!!
& oh! ooh! i wanna gush more! last night, bill couldn't fall asleep & ended up staying up all night (: ( )... so when i had to get up this morning, he offered to do it instead of the alarm... and woke me up with kisses... and had a cup oftea made for me! *big ass grin* he's just my wonderful boy : )
its getting kind of frustrating!
overall, though, today has been a decent day... stress levels didn't reach their usual peak and i was quite happy about that : )
also got to use my newly acquired EZPass for the first time today : ) (its the tri-state's equivalent of the Fast Lane, only its exceted here, and Fast Lane thingies aren't accepted there... and as i go visit my family once in a while, i decided it'd be best to get something that would work for both). Its so damn refreshing not to be scrambling for change, and the hassle of having to stop and open your window, etc. i mean, in the grand scheme of life, its not big deal at all, just one of those tiny luxuries that makes me feel all fuzzy inside : )
and speaking of my family... they're evil tempters! they're going out to an all-you-can-eat sushi place in NY Sunday night, and are using that as leverage to convince me to come visit this weekend! ...really makes me wish the long weekends school afforded, too... cuz from what my mom says abi has grown up a lot since i last saw her (she can crawl now, can walk while holding on with only one hand, and picked up on a few really cute sing-along motions!) and i'd love to see her..
hell, between the wanting to see her & the sushi, i'm tempted to just go up saturday & come back sunday anyways... although i don't know if i'm tempted enough cuz the drives still intimidate me... we'll see though...
also i feel the need of spilling my gush towards bill & last night...
we didn't have any set plans & just kindof tossed ideas around a lot... neitherone of us care much aout the holiday, but for a bit, his lack of interest was disturbing. amusingly enough, after he called me at work to ask what i wanted to do, all that anxiety was lifted. i even told him during my drive home, that at this point i was put at ease enough that i'd be okay with not doing anyhting! in the end, though we settled on dinner. finding an italian place in this neighborhood, and that would seat was one hassle and a half! we ended up at a little place on main st. overall, the food wasn't fantastic and the prices were pricey.. but bill has this wondeful ability to set the rght nood and i had a really wonderful time : )
after dinner was more plans in flux. he wanted to stay home & i felt that i would rather go out. i was actually going to just stay homeout of the desire to make him happy, but he pretty much insisted i go out. i thought that was very sweet, and promised to come home soon. he mentioned somehting about maybe coming by, but he didn't sound sure at all.
and then this made my night - he did end up showing up... and to top it off, brought me a rose, too! : )
it just melted me : )
its funny how our relationship fluctuates - its like we go through stages as to who's flaws show more and hus need more work... and it creates some tension at first, but then gets worked out & tips over again. though i do gotta say he's a damn lot more patient with my faults then i am with his. definately one of those things i need to work on : ) but right now is definately a time when my faults are showing up more, and his patience and understanding and devotion have been making me melt for a couple of weeks now. i just feel so lucky to be with someone who's so wonderful to me!! and its really quite the motivation to fix my issues, too.. thiniing/knowing that i'm not makng him as happy as he makes me just sits there at the pit of me and will nag until the quirks get worked out.
heh.. and i think thats pretty much all of my life for right now. aside from being at work and coming home, i rarely have any significant attention span, and haven't really done anything new & exciting in some time now. whenever i get the spurt inspiration to write, i usually have intersting (well, to me) stuff i want to write about... but then the moment passes and its gone.
heh.. somehting amusing about my attention span - today, at th end of the day at work, i got asked how i like my new chair. *blink blink* new chair? soi go look in my cube, and lo and behold - better chair! and then i realize i've been sitting in it all day. and that when i came in this morning, putting my coat around it felt different. but at the time, i shrugged it &moved on - and prolly would never had realized that i now have a comfier chair if it wasn't pointed out to me!
so yeah.. me?? space cadet?! never!!
& oh! ooh! i wanna gush more! last night, bill couldn't fall asleep & ended up staying up all night (: ( )... so when i had to get up this morning, he offered to do it instead of the alarm... and woke me up with kisses... and had a cup oftea made for me! *big ass grin* he's just my wonderful boy : )
