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elvendollits nice and sunny outside my window and i still feel like crap.
i'm thinking maybe i should have just brought my gym bag today, too... i figured i wouldn't want to be stuck around here late on a friday, but now i'm in the 'well... what would i be missing out on?' kick. bill's schedule is starting to get to me. i want to spend time with him tonight - which leaves me twiddling my thumbs till 11pm... and of course, there's plenty of stuff i could do... i just know that if i'm in a bad mood/not in the mood to be alone, i won't be able to force myself to.
*sigh*
makes me wish i had more of a social life.
of course another thing bugging me is the fact that when bill isn't at work, he doesn't show much enthusiasm for spending time with me. which isn't even that unreasonable - i'm only up for like the first hour, hour and a half of when he gets home from work, time during which he's still trying to chill out and stuff. but damnit, it just bothers me. : (
*sigh*
so yeah...
thats me in a nutshell.
i'm not even looking forward to this weekend that much. given, i don' have anything planned, so i don't have anything to look forward to, but still...
i kinda wish i had someone to go to 80's night with me saturday night, because i haven't done that in a while, but i guess it just wasn't meant to be.. not to mention that it woudln't be the best idea after asking bill to be home by late afternoon from a gathering he's going to. and on our year and a half anniversary.
blah.
i'm thinking maybe i should have just brought my gym bag today, too... i figured i wouldn't want to be stuck around here late on a friday, but now i'm in the 'well... what would i be missing out on?' kick. bill's schedule is starting to get to me. i want to spend time with him tonight - which leaves me twiddling my thumbs till 11pm... and of course, there's plenty of stuff i could do... i just know that if i'm in a bad mood/not in the mood to be alone, i won't be able to force myself to.
*sigh*
makes me wish i had more of a social life.
of course another thing bugging me is the fact that when bill isn't at work, he doesn't show much enthusiasm for spending time with me. which isn't even that unreasonable - i'm only up for like the first hour, hour and a half of when he gets home from work, time during which he's still trying to chill out and stuff. but damnit, it just bothers me. : (
*sigh*
so yeah...
thats me in a nutshell.
i'm not even looking forward to this weekend that much. given, i don' have anything planned, so i don't have anything to look forward to, but still...
i kinda wish i had someone to go to 80's night with me saturday night, because i haven't done that in a while, but i guess it just wasn't meant to be.. not to mention that it woudln't be the best idea after asking bill to be home by late afternoon from a gathering he's going to. and on our year and a half anniversary.
blah.
