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[elvendoll]

so i am currently at my parents' rental on the cape.
got up late this morning - finally!
i first woke up at 10am and got very pissed with my body - after going to bed around 4am, i should have slept better. so, determined, i stayed in bed, and by 11 i fell back asleep.
i then awoke at 1, but within a few minutes was back on the bed - my tummy was hurting, and i thought laying down on it would make it better - i woke up at 2 to find it did : )
after gathering my bearings for a bit, i wandered off to johny o's with spud & melinda for a very yummy & filling brunch, came back to throw stuffs into bags and drive down here.
pretty uneventful day, considering that nothing other then sitting around, dinner and tea went on here...
but my grandparents are here now, too, and i am glad to get to spend time around them.

overall, my mood has been very shaky (as it was yesterday), but it makes me feel better to know that it is probably at least partially due to PMS. and knowing i won't have my period while on the cruise makes the cramps a lot more tolerable now, too...

yesterday. hrmmm. lousy mood most of the day. didn't get better until the alcohol started to kick in at MR. it was a good alcohol night for me - i drank just enough to be nicely buzzed, and for it to wear off just when i needed it to. i felt bad being at MR with a bad mood at first. i wasn't fun to be around, and would have probably gone home had i not needed to make sure some people stop by the house to pick up CdS tix afterwards. but i am glad i stayed.
in a way, it kinda bothers me that only alcohol, and not my own efforts, were able to lift my mood... but i think in this case, it is okay - most of my mood was caused by evil thoughts inside my head, and the alcohol lowered my attention span, which allowed me to shift my concentration to the without rather then within, and allowed me to have fun.

blah.
i don't know what else i meant to say in this entry, but i can't think of it now. here is (vain?) hoping for restful sleep tonight.

Comments

PMS sucks!

[xevb3k.livejournal.com]

Whoo hoo! I think our cycles are in sync. lol... I hate pms.

Re: PMS sucks!

[elvendoll.livejournal.com]

odd... mine is like 2 weeks late this time around. i honestly think it was trying to hold out for the cruise & failed.

good thing it did though : )

Re: PMS sucks!

[xevb3k.livejournal.com]

I used to hate it when that happened. I've been on the pill for a few years now, so I don't have that problem anymore. The paranoia that you might be late for a reason is not pleasant.

Re: PMS sucks!

[elvendoll.livejournal.com]

yeah... when i had even the slightest cause to worry, i would really stress it when my period was late. this time around though, there was no chance, and i know my body's tendency to give me my perioud at the worst possible moments (usually, as soon as i step onto a plane, actually - and i am not afraid of flying, so its not stress related)

Re: PMS sucks!

[xevb3k.livejournal.com]

That sucks. Heh.. I think every girl has had this paranoia: When you're in high school or middle school, you're still a virgin, and your period is late, you start thinking whether it's possible for you to have an immaculate conception. LOL.. I know so many girls who have thought that!

Re: PMS sucks!

[elvendoll.livejournal.com]

*lol*
i remember that.. but i do have to say, my paranoia was slightly more realistic - it involved me being raped & being traumtized enough to block the memory of it... somehow i never once thought i was immaculate conception material : )

Re: PMS sucks!

[xevb3k.livejournal.com]

You know, I think we have more in common than I thought. Maybe someday if we're both in a bad mood, we can share a gallon of ice cream and I'll bitch about my psycho abusive ex. Thanks to him, I had that same experience. Repressed memories are very unpleasant.