because i feel like it....
Oct. 27th, 2001 01:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendolltwo quotes from veronika dolina
"i could become normal, today, within an afternoon - but your world still wouldn't have a place for me"
"we are not children of Arbat, they won't let us back in, they hardly let us out"
i've started listening to what i have of her songs a lot more again lately. haven't done that in probably 3 years... its weird trying to relate what the lyrics mean to me now to what they meant to me then... i think the time i saw her play was more symbolism then seeing a concert - i kinda knew that right away.
it must've been 1995-96, and she was playing at a family friends' house as a favor (i am not sure if it was planned or impromptu, and what she was doing in the states) i think she mentioned that she flew in like 2 days prior to that day... there was 13 of us gathered in a living room - the hosts, my parents, grandparents, my grandma's best friend (who i am close to), stepdad's parents, and another couple.
she sat with her guitar and played the notes like it was second nature.... but couldn't remember the words... she would pause while still playing the guitar, or she'd just start talking... she told us that she didn't have a chance to prepare, talked about how when she wrote and composed and played a lot she was a young person, experimenting with life, and now she is a grown woman, on her second marriage and with her oldest (of 3) children writing his masters thesis...
at one point, my grandma's friend kinda put me on the spot - i was looking at which cd's she had for sale, and after seeing that the one cd i really wanted wasn't there, picked the oldest one there, which was still pretty recent - and was asked, in front of her, why i chose an older cd rather then one of the new ones... luckily, dolina saw that i was embarrassed, and said that she understood, and that the older music was from a different portion of her life.
it was just very symbolic because it was the reality of the concept that the artist is not the sum of their creative work... that this woman in front of me wasn't exactly who sang these songs that meant so much to me... i wasn't ever disappointed - i was glad to have seen her so up close, and to have my image of the voice behind the music be untainted.. and when i got home and opened the cd i bought, i was very excited to discover that the cd was mispackaged, and the cd inside the cover was actually the one i was originally looking for.
"i could become normal, today, within an afternoon - but your world still wouldn't have a place for me"
"we are not children of Arbat, they won't let us back in, they hardly let us out"
i've started listening to what i have of her songs a lot more again lately. haven't done that in probably 3 years... its weird trying to relate what the lyrics mean to me now to what they meant to me then... i think the time i saw her play was more symbolism then seeing a concert - i kinda knew that right away.
it must've been 1995-96, and she was playing at a family friends' house as a favor (i am not sure if it was planned or impromptu, and what she was doing in the states) i think she mentioned that she flew in like 2 days prior to that day... there was 13 of us gathered in a living room - the hosts, my parents, grandparents, my grandma's best friend (who i am close to), stepdad's parents, and another couple.
she sat with her guitar and played the notes like it was second nature.... but couldn't remember the words... she would pause while still playing the guitar, or she'd just start talking... she told us that she didn't have a chance to prepare, talked about how when she wrote and composed and played a lot she was a young person, experimenting with life, and now she is a grown woman, on her second marriage and with her oldest (of 3) children writing his masters thesis...
at one point, my grandma's friend kinda put me on the spot - i was looking at which cd's she had for sale, and after seeing that the one cd i really wanted wasn't there, picked the oldest one there, which was still pretty recent - and was asked, in front of her, why i chose an older cd rather then one of the new ones... luckily, dolina saw that i was embarrassed, and said that she understood, and that the older music was from a different portion of her life.
it was just very symbolic because it was the reality of the concept that the artist is not the sum of their creative work... that this woman in front of me wasn't exactly who sang these songs that meant so much to me... i wasn't ever disappointed - i was glad to have seen her so up close, and to have my image of the voice behind the music be untainted.. and when i got home and opened the cd i bought, i was very excited to discover that the cd was mispackaged, and the cd inside the cover was actually the one i was originally looking for.
