lunchtime ramblings

[elvendoll]

the thought started out like this -
life is like a highway, and on it, some people are accidents waiting to happen, where, standing on the sidelines, you can see a person going in a straight line from a to b, watch them hit b, and act like its the biggest surprise in the world. and then other people are like repeat DUI offenders - getting into the same accidents, day in, day out, and not understanding how they got into each one...
and then i thought of myself... and my fear of failure, and the series of problems it puts me into - and how easy it may be for someone else to point and say 'there - you keep stepping into a puddle there, just walk around it next time' while for me its like there's this huge emotional mountain i can't fathom crossing, and then the only difference between and those others is that my stumbling block is on a higher plane then theirs.
so does that mean i am no stronger then them? and the desire to point and laugh at the really stupid ones is just one of those primal human nature things that i have not matured over? does the fact that i see where my fault is make me even worse?

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[xevb3k.livejournal.com]

Being aware of your faults and past mistakes makes you more intelligent than those stupid people who stumble blindly through life. That intelligence is what gives you strength. Being aware of everything is what enables you to learn from past mistakes and improve yourself, which is something that stupid people lack.