bitching, whining, what have you...

[elvendoll]

so today didn't improve much...

got home and vegged.
felt pretty shitty, and because of this, my dinner consisted of a bag of popcorn around 7:30 and a bowl of cereal a few minutes ago.
and right now, i am starting to get pretty sleepy.
its really cold in here, so i went to turn the heat up, only to realize the temperature is quite a bit lower then the thermostat is set for - so adam is checking the pilot light right now - *crosses fingers* hopefully, that's it and he's able to relight it.

(actually looks like 2 of the 3 in the basement are out - joy... hopefully spud will be able to relight it, and i will have warm cozy room again soon)

an electric blanket sounds so good right now.....

so i realized today that i fixate on things too much. something bothers me, or even unsettles my balance, and to me, it becomes like the biggest thing in the world. and i dwell on it until i somehow come to peace with the situation, and then it passes. on the one hand, in theory, this is good because i deal with things that come up, but on the other, ots bad because it makes me totally blow things out of proportion. most of the time, i can realize i am doing this and keep that in mind in terms of how much i actually let out, but its still borderline unhealthy. i just don't know how i would change that, especially considering the fact that i don't want to ruin the fact that i currently do deal with shit.
in fact, its kinda like when i feel the need to tell someone something - until i tell them, it drives me batty - but after i do, it just fades into the background.

but, i am now to tired to figure out whether or not i make sense. goodnight.

(as i dread climbing into a freezing bed)

Comments

[tobi.livejournal.com]

i guess the only advice i can give you it to leet it go. yes you do deal with things, but it's possible that some of them only need to be dealt with because you make them such big issues. it's possible that if you let it roll off your back to begin with, it would never have to be dealt with and then you could focus on dealing with bigger and more important issues, that may get pushed to the background because you're fixated on and ultiamtely exhausted from being overwhelmed by the little things.