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[elvendoll]

i'm in an odd mood...

i remember when it started, and am kinda confused by that...
so i've come home, been mellow, watched some tv, finished my book & played online...
debating going to the club tonight, but i don't feel a particular desire - the only reason i am considering it is because dancing my do me some good - we'll see...

and i really was going to write more, i swear! ...its just gone now...

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[kittypie.livejournal.com]

for some reason, i didn't tell you this right away (i completely forgot/blocked the incident from my mind...) but i had an anxiety attack one night after eating way too much pot brownie - which basically amounted to an overdose of thc, if that event counts as an overdose! i dont know... the point being, i was completely freaking out to the point where i faked being sick (i was at a friend's house) and got ryan to drive me home... where i continued to freak out, more or less. i wanted to talk to you because i know you've experienced something to that effect (albeit, not drug-induced) and wanted to know how you got better/coped with it... it really freaked me out.
anyway.. just wanted to blurt that out before i go to bed.
love
>^..^

[elvendoll.livejournal.com]

in my experience, the best way to cope with an anxiety attack is to try to calm down & recenter yourself (sounds easier said then done, huh?) - specific things that have helped are (a) drinking cool water, and concentrating on it going down as you swallow - just kind of drink a full glass, and try to feel it down to your stomach (b) taking a hot-cold-hot-cold shower, as that forces your body to adjust and readjust to the temperature (c) laying down, and trying to concentrate on zen - kinda like trying to tune into the anxiety attack and manually downshift it (d) when ryan is around, laying down with him, cuddling, having him be really gentle and quietly talk about other things (e) fooling around isn't a bad idea, as an orgasm forces your body to recenter a bit, too.. in terms of herbal stuff, st. john's work and/or valerian definately help (but, be careful with st. john's wort if you are ont he pill).

for me, my anxiety attacks are usually not physically crippling, and are more bothersome because of being persistent, so these things could be different for you..

& *hugs*
have you talked to ryan about it?
you shouldn't need to fake being sick to get out of a situation if you're having an anxiety attack...

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[kittypie.livejournal.com]

well considering it was caused by drugs, i wasn't exactly in the right thinking mode and therefore couldn't be honest and deal with the situation as it was (if i had been able to be honest with my friends, i probably would not have been having the attack in the first place). it all just started to make me feel very self conscious at first, then actually feeling somewhat sick/nervous in my tummy until i just got so down on myself that i couldnt really deal anymore.
ryan helped a lot in different ways: he actually is the one who drove me home and explained to me what was going on with me (he was familiar with it because his mom used to have anxiety attacks all the time) and he was there for me when i got home. it took a few hours but i just lay there and tried some of the stuff you talked about above... it just scared the shit out of me. ive never experienced such an intense version of being high. it was definately something like an overdose... i think i might have experienced that on acid, but i dont really remember. i just now realize why i stopped doing drugs in the first place.
thank you
:)

[scuba.livejournal.com]

In my experiences with drug related anxiety, trying to find a warm center of calm is next to impossible because not being able to find a calm spot is the cause of it. What I've found to function effectively is to give in and stop trying to fight it.

Granted, my drug related anxieties were caused by acid, which is a little more severe than any pot related anxiety I can imagine(in regards to functionality and ease of escape, at least), but in both major occurrences, giving your mind total freedom to do what it will has always brought me back(in a roundabout manner). Normally, this is how I approach drug experiences, but external influence can effect that. If you're in company that is unable to accept that you're letting your mind go off and play, the best bet is to get someone who can take you away from the environment or go somewhere else, if possible.

I'm not sure how well that applies to anxiety attacks of any format, but I consider a bad trip to be an anxiety attack at the perfectly wrong time.

[elvendoll.livejournal.com]

in my experience with anxiety, they're not focussed in the head, but in the stomach area... so its not about 'finding a warm center of calm' but about shifting your concentration to where the anxiety attack is, and trying to get in tune enough with it to find the control to relax that area...
being distracted under really comfortable circumstances can help because 'being in the moment' of the anxiety attack can hinder your ability to deal with - like the more it bothers you, the sharper you feel it, so shifting concentration to a calm discussion about something else can shift focus enough to allow the anxiety to pass...

and i know those two sound contradictory - i guess the difference is, when trying to shift your focus of concentration (at least for me) it like moving my center of where i am coming from to my stomach area, while just concentrating on/being bothered by anxiety involves the internal looking down from the head to the stomach, disliking what is happening there and feeling very out of control...