babbling...

[elvendoll]

...because i can (until i get kicked out of here)...

after helping my stepdad buy a terapin on ebay, i started looking for stuff for myself - still debating getting an extra battery for my cell phone (there's some really cheap, but i don't know if i trust them to actually be as good as they say they are), then looked into getting a radar detector (but found out it'd be cool to borrow my parents' for the next month), and saw that noone's selling cute velvet frogs on ebay - i keep meaning to pop into toys r us to see what they have & forgetting to - i have really grown fond of the purple one i have, and regretting not getting the different purple one i saw at some point after that...

looking over my back posts, it was kinda striking that there wasn't really any prolonged period of time when i've been 'okay'... its always one thing or another... and i don't know how much of that is from me writing about negative stuff, how much is from me just being screwed up, and how much is from me being determined to fix the next thing on the list anytime i reach a point i am better.
honestly, i don't care to really find out.
and though it does bug me that here, i come off as perpetually broken, internally i kinda am/can be, and people that know me IRL ...well, put up with me for one reason or another : )
it does bug me that i haven't made much progress in the past year+, but i think something will happen soon...

and did i mention my family rocks?
tonight, i have gotten my eyebrows plucked, my hair trimmed, a back rub and was allowed to borrow a radar detector without getting any odd looks or statements : )
originally, debbie & i wanted to take my mom out for sushi tomorrow, but it looks like family friends will be coming over and we won't have enough time to do that - here's hoping that one of us comes up with (good) alternate ideas overnight : ) (and that debbie will be smart enough not to wake me up in the morning again - she should feel lucky she survived trying to wake me up at 10am today)
and debbie does have an email address - i find that so amusing : )

i *really* need to do something with my room. as much as i love the fact that its eccentric, the fact that its so damn hard to maneuver anything into it is damn annoying.

and i can't believe CdS is only two weeks away! *bounce*
although having pretty much all of may planned out, i am really itching to start making plans for june. whats going on in june?

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I used to be plagued by one crisis or another, so I know how you feel. I don't know exactly how I managed to change my life into such a calm, happy state. It's still always one thing or another, though. I guess that is the way life works. I amazed Jason can put up with me.

We should go shopping sometime or do girly stuff. I'm sick of hanging around men all of the time.