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Jun. 27th, 2002 09:16 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendollanger is the one emotion i cannot deal with.
its like a tornado inside of me that keeps going round and round, causing pain without subsiding or moving elsewhere.
its not easy to get me angry. i can get hurt, or annoyed, or indignant... and it seems like with those, its like normal people's anger... but when i'm angry, until i can somehow snap out of it or downgrade to one of the aforementioned three, i can't deal.
and i'm very angry at myself right now.
i'm also recoiling over how crippled i felt over the fucking road thing. basically, rt. 3 south was closed, and the detour signs led me along dark streets in lowell & chelmsford in a half hour circle. at around 2am. and this is after the fucking signs were so small i had to make two circles to get onto the detour path. but the bottom line is that it shouldn't have broken me as much as it had.
and i've never been a big fan of sunglasses. i pretty much don't like them and have never worn any much. but today, i don't know what i'd do without them. it reminds me of wearing all black for the first time.
its like a tornado inside of me that keeps going round and round, causing pain without subsiding or moving elsewhere.
its not easy to get me angry. i can get hurt, or annoyed, or indignant... and it seems like with those, its like normal people's anger... but when i'm angry, until i can somehow snap out of it or downgrade to one of the aforementioned three, i can't deal.
and i'm very angry at myself right now.
i'm also recoiling over how crippled i felt over the fucking road thing. basically, rt. 3 south was closed, and the detour signs led me along dark streets in lowell & chelmsford in a half hour circle. at around 2am. and this is after the fucking signs were so small i had to make two circles to get onto the detour path. but the bottom line is that it shouldn't have broken me as much as it had.
and i've never been a big fan of sunglasses. i pretty much don't like them and have never worn any much. but today, i don't know what i'd do without them. it reminds me of wearing all black for the first time.
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Awwww sweeetie !!!!!!!!!
Date: 2002-06-27 06:24 am (UTC)Big hugs !
Kate
Re: Awwww sweeetie !!!!!!!!!
Date: 2002-06-27 06:33 am (UTC)their signs are so less then clear or timely.
and i'm really curious if they'd really fucked up the detour signs, because i can't think of a point i could have taken a wrong turn, and they just led me all around lowell/chelmsford, just to pop me into the same place on 495 i started out from. and i knew that if i did this (half hour) circle again and failed again, i wouldn't be able to deal at all, so i took 495 to the pike to get home. i'll just thank my lucky stars i didn't get pulled over at any point... i was barely holding my shit together enough to drive, and would have lost it on the first person i saw, police officer or not... (hell, i'm still scared to talk to customers!)