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Jul. 29th, 2002 12:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendollso i didn't hit snooze even once this morning.... but that's because i forgot to set my alarm clock last night.
the joy of being neurotic is that i still got up at a reasonable time to dash out the door and be semi-on-time. the more surprising thing is that i never panicked... woke up, looked at the time... realized that it said 8:36 (its set a half hour ahead), and that its really 8:06 and that the little red dot for the alarm isn't there and that i should just get up. normally, i'd spend a few minutes in some sort of panic.
also got a call from the bookstore that there's a book with my name on it under the register. i'm glad its in, but i've also realized i have a lot of food for thought regarding this class for the next couple of days.
umass is funky in its inconsistencies.
any classes you transfer, come in as P/F. and you can take classes at other colleges that are within your major/minor, and when they transfer, they come in as P/F.
but, if you're taking a class on campus, you can't have a P/F course count towards a major/minor.
now, in theory, i kinda want to see if i can do a psych minor.
and even though, in theory, i could prolly do a double major with psych, i can't without losing 3 credits i already have because umass has two entry-level psych classes, psych 100 and 101... and you can only get credit for one of them, but if you've taken psych 101 (like i did), you can't take some psych classes required for the major, and which leads into more of my current dilemma.
my cumulative gpa is 3.28. which means that right now, even a B+ will bring it down.
i'm not happy in my current class, and i don't know if i can push myself to get a B+ or above.
not having the book yet, and not having any grades at the time of the pass/fail deadline isn't doing anything good.
but, basically, i don't want to fuck up my gpa. and in theory, i could stand to not have this class go towards the minor because i have over a years worth of credits to go before any degree, but, i'm not sure how many psych classes i could take with only having psych 101 and how they'd fit into my schedule. also, i really can't put myself through hoops for every single grade i get. there's c's on my record now, and i was able to pull my gpa up from the 2.76 i had at the end of my freshman year - i have to somehow accept that its ok for my gpa to go down a bit before i bring it back up (because i'm kinda determined to graduate cum laude).
and i'm really kinda angry at the bookstore, the professor and myself for the fact that this class isn't doing it for me right now.
i've also decided that if i take any online classes this fall, it will be from bunker hill. umass online classes cost $650, there isn't a single one i'm excited about, and, bunker hill classes will count as transfer credit and be p/f without eating up any more of the 8 p/f classes i'm allotted at umess. now its just a matter of picking a class, double-checking everything with a umass advisor, and then jumping through the paperwork hoops. (funfunfun, eh?)
in other news, i had a mellow day yesterday.
did laundry, dishes and cleaned off the kitchen/living room area a bit, but got too angsty before getting to the walls. really gotta do that soon *grumble*
and gotta find more walking companions. i know some would think its silly that i don't feel safe enough to go walking by myself at night, but that's not something i want to push my luck about - i think i pushed my luck a whole bunch when i was younger, and i don't want to find out whether its up.
and can i just mention that i'm not looking forward to class tonight? *grumble*
the joy of being neurotic is that i still got up at a reasonable time to dash out the door and be semi-on-time. the more surprising thing is that i never panicked... woke up, looked at the time... realized that it said 8:36 (its set a half hour ahead), and that its really 8:06 and that the little red dot for the alarm isn't there and that i should just get up. normally, i'd spend a few minutes in some sort of panic.
also got a call from the bookstore that there's a book with my name on it under the register. i'm glad its in, but i've also realized i have a lot of food for thought regarding this class for the next couple of days.
umass is funky in its inconsistencies.
any classes you transfer, come in as P/F. and you can take classes at other colleges that are within your major/minor, and when they transfer, they come in as P/F.
but, if you're taking a class on campus, you can't have a P/F course count towards a major/minor.
now, in theory, i kinda want to see if i can do a psych minor.
and even though, in theory, i could prolly do a double major with psych, i can't without losing 3 credits i already have because umass has two entry-level psych classes, psych 100 and 101... and you can only get credit for one of them, but if you've taken psych 101 (like i did), you can't take some psych classes required for the major, and which leads into more of my current dilemma.
my cumulative gpa is 3.28. which means that right now, even a B+ will bring it down.
i'm not happy in my current class, and i don't know if i can push myself to get a B+ or above.
not having the book yet, and not having any grades at the time of the pass/fail deadline isn't doing anything good.
but, basically, i don't want to fuck up my gpa. and in theory, i could stand to not have this class go towards the minor because i have over a years worth of credits to go before any degree, but, i'm not sure how many psych classes i could take with only having psych 101 and how they'd fit into my schedule. also, i really can't put myself through hoops for every single grade i get. there's c's on my record now, and i was able to pull my gpa up from the 2.76 i had at the end of my freshman year - i have to somehow accept that its ok for my gpa to go down a bit before i bring it back up (because i'm kinda determined to graduate cum laude).
and i'm really kinda angry at the bookstore, the professor and myself for the fact that this class isn't doing it for me right now.
i've also decided that if i take any online classes this fall, it will be from bunker hill. umass online classes cost $650, there isn't a single one i'm excited about, and, bunker hill classes will count as transfer credit and be p/f without eating up any more of the 8 p/f classes i'm allotted at umess. now its just a matter of picking a class, double-checking everything with a umass advisor, and then jumping through the paperwork hoops. (funfunfun, eh?)
in other news, i had a mellow day yesterday.
did laundry, dishes and cleaned off the kitchen/living room area a bit, but got too angsty before getting to the walls. really gotta do that soon *grumble*
and gotta find more walking companions. i know some would think its silly that i don't feel safe enough to go walking by myself at night, but that's not something i want to push my luck about - i think i pushed my luck a whole bunch when i was younger, and i don't want to find out whether its up.
and can i just mention that i'm not looking forward to class tonight? *grumble*
