all i want...

is a bottomless cup of coffee and food served to me!
it around 3pm and i have yet to have anything to eat or drink - no wonder i'm acting like a f*cking loony!
i am just now nearing the end of the near hour long struggle to make myself something to eat.
the biggest problem is that there's no good food at the house, and i hate dirtying dishes before the sink is empty...
by the same token, i've gone way too long without food to be able to force myself to either shop or clean as well as cook.. at least not before eating...
and damnit, i got my mind set on eating out for a totally silly reason, and when it became obvious that that wasn't going to happen my mind ddn't want to let go.
its taken time under the blankets to get this far and i feel like a total looser.
not having meds as well as not having food isn't helping either.
its like i keep sitting here waiting for a fucking miracle, still not getting up to cook : /
*sigh*
there need to be more yulia snacks. the boys have it so easy, they microwave dinners and dinners in a can.
now if only they made decent vegetarian food like that!