another day...

nose still leaking, throat still sore, cough coming out more and more, but the head feels less heavy and eyes not like they're abotu to pop out of the sockets.
i am going to take this as a good sign...
yesterday evening i just felt like crap.
there were a few moments when i felt better, but then ickyness would setlle in again.
going to the mall last night was a pain in the ass...
first off, the phone started magically working for the tech guy. that pissed me off as the driving conditions were really lousy, especially considering i still don't have my left side mirror and my wiper blades blow hard, and i was just feeling really shitty.
after some discussion over it, bill & i decided to drop by the actual mall anyways, but that was a rather disapointing experience because i was hoping to find at least some x-halloween stuff for sale & didn't, and we were on a limited time scale & bill kept going to all the different cell phone places trying to find himself an affordable plan.
it wasn't anything horrible, though, and probably a good thing overall as the shake i had there did settle the stomach problems i was having.
we got back pretty much just in time to sit back & realx for a bit before becky came by & darkangel came on.
i kinda like that most of the household gathers to watch the show ( minus the scuba, but added to by becky & the beer she brings)
and i had a good time.
a few months ago, i felt a hint of odd vibes between me & becky, and now they seem to be all gone & that makes me happy.

after becky left, bill and i headed off to bed, and had an odd discussion...
we're just at a point of our relationship where everything is going well for the most part, so the few things that could be better are easily ignored & tend to only come out if we're in bad moods, and then all of a sudden we found ourselves in a bouncing off of 'this could be better's
overall i think its pretty cool & healthy and stuff... it just kinda brought out how many things could be better.. which was odd considering how well we're doing... (my insanity aside, of course)
after that, it took me a while to fall asleep.. but once i did... i had another full night of sleep!!!
i slept in a bit late again, which it hink did my cold some good, though my psyche is another story... it gave me this miserable dream about how i was running late for an interview, and for some reason had my interview clothes with me to change into, and couldn't find a bathroom running through like 3 buidlings, then finding one with water all over the floor, trying to change there anyways, realizing i didn't have most of the undergarments i'd need, and that i was already a half hour late, and then realizing that i should've just rescheduled in the first place.
i ended up waking up just in time - the first recruiter call as i was finishing up in the bathroom.
the story goes is that of the people that interviewed at the place i went to on monday, i was 2nd choice. so he's trying to get them to have me go in for the 2nd round as well as the 1st choice. the problem is that they want this to happen early next week, and i have to be in NJ then.
*sigh*
i am still kinda crossing my fingers for it.
then came the call from the second place, they had me do a phone interview.
i thought it went awkwardly & choppy, and the lady kept pressing the money issue, but they'll try to get me in to a personal interview before the end of the week.
and i get to call back someone else at their office about another job in a bit.
damnit, something better come through!!!

aside from all that, nothing much is going on.
my mother is really worried that me having a cold will not be ok for the reason of my NJ visit, so i am now boiling what will be my third cup of tea for the day.. i am just a firm believer in tea as the heal-all and am determined to get well by the weekend
also need to get a lot of house chores done today, damnit.
and a shower should be beneficial as well... i am feeling better enough to not be afraid of wet-hair sde-effects.
so yeah, thats me in a nutshell right now.
oh, add in silly purchase from the home shopping network last night (to be split between me, bill & becky) and pipe-dreams of selling stuff on ebay.
well, that, and this desire to go out and buy lots of x-halloween stuff & nifty house decorations and knowing i really can't until i have a job...
blah.
tea is good though

blah.

just did a butt ton of dishes, and still some left.
i'll ask someone else to do them - its like a quarter of what was originally there & my hands feel all yucky.
i'm hungry, too, but can't decide what it is i want to eat, and dirtying dishes after having just washed them sucks i've been living almost exclusively off of cheese sandwiches lately, though, and thats gotta stop.
i think my choices are hippie rice (white rice with butter and spices - bill's x-roomate hippie introduced m to it & its yummy, but takes a bit of time to make), pasta roni (getting boing as its become my standard fare, and it doesn't have leftovers), frozen pasta veggie stuff (but i am afraid it will make my tummy hurt as its a bit spicy & my tummy is sensitive)
i think the obvious choice here is hippy rice & i need to stop being lazy about it.
yeah!
*off to start the process*
back..
also making myself more tea...
but now i can't remember what it was i wanted to write about
*whine*
well, actually, thanksgiving seems to be a good topic.
originally, bill was going to host one here... and i was all excited about it...
then, he got depressed about $$ issues and not being able to afford to go all out... i waited, thinking that he'd snap out of it at any point now... and then instead he tells me that he would rather go to his godmother's thanksgiving, me invited, of course.
this makes me feel weird.
his mom makes me feel weird, and the prospect of meeting more of his family even moreso.
staying with my family is pretty much out of the question. even if no interviews get scheduled for wednesday, i don't think i could take it bing out there that long...
and i know there are other options, i was just kinda hoping to spend it with bill.
and i guess a part of me is just sitting by and waiting for him to change his mind...
yeah..
also been having major wanderlust thoughts lately...
yesterday in the car ride home, had this whole plan worked out about bill & i saving up about a grand each and going on a major road trip...
a part of me wishes it wasn't all a pipe dream...

well, this entry has taken me almost an hour to write, as i've gotten a couple of phone calls & been chatting..
at least the rice came out pretty yummy : )