i kinda wanna write...

...but on the whole, i don't really feel like sharing.
bad days have been coming like one after the other.
my body is doing something way funky to me, and i don't like it one bit.
its like 1 part head cold - eyes feel all dry, i feel like i have a temperature, and my muscles are sore. 1 part sinus infection - cuz my nose has been leaking some & i'm having sinus headaches, and one part strep symptoms - really really sore throat & coughing.
only none of these are constant, but they're not mutually exclusive, either. sometimes it will be just one, sometimes two ofthe three, and at bad moments, all three.
the worst for me is the head cold symptoms. the leaking/headache/sore throat/coughing i can force myself to deal with. but the temperature feeling, heavy head thing - that gets me every single time. and it makes me feel so horrible because i can feel that the body is able, but the head is whats keeping me lagging.
*grumble*
tomorrow is going to be a busy day for me, and i am bracing myself for the self-gripping i will have to do...

at least ont he plus side, the house is cleaner then its been in ages...
we cleaned it a bunch over the weekend, and then matty cleaned again today - and even did the bathroom! that was like no man's land!! gotta say i am damn impressed : )

and things with bill are looking up, too...
last week we had the first/argument right before he went away, and when he came back - *poof* - everything going great like magic!
i am torn between wanting to know what caused the change & being terrified of asking - afraid that the spell will break.
whatever it is, i sure the hell hope it lasts!! : )

*sigh* there's other things on my mind, too... i am just really not ready to talk about them though : /

exhausted.

it has been such a long, stressful day.
i odn't know if i can muster sentences for this entry...
i got up way early to be ready for an interview scheduling email... even called there before 10:30... ( i was going to do it earlier, but got talked into driving bill to work)
everything was gonna work out so that i could go to lunch with maxie zeus & pick up the pirntouts he had for tobi, and then go off my interview.
the timing should've been perfect - leaving the house at 12:30, lunch at 1, leave for interview at 2, which owuld have left more then enough time.
one prob. there were no legal parking spots to be had... i decided to accept a $20 ticket and just park after 10 mins of circling around. the car behind where i was had a ticket, so the 'tow zone' sign didn't do much to me - most of them say that.
and usually, most of them don't tow you. just ticket. repeatedly if necesary.
but...
when i got back to where my car should have been, no car was there.
first moments were just sheer panick.
i was just flabergasted - i had an interview to get to and my car is gone.
called maxie zeus, near tears.
he quickly got me the phone # to call to find out where my car is (thank you!), and 10 minutes later i was in a cab headed towards southie. at first the cab was in traffic & i was in utter despair.
then i realized there were people here, called home & got the phone number to reach the person i'd be interviewing with.
by thi time traffic relaxed,and i was almost there. it was like 2:30ish. i thought what the hey - the place is only in braintree, is hould be able to make it there relatively quickly, and resceduled for 3:30 rather then tomorrow like i was first thinking to do.
hindsight, always 20/20,
turns out i beat my car to the towing place.
spent about a half hour pacing there, while the car came in & the paper work was done.
which put me running late for 3:30
i felt worse then shit.
i tried sounding cheerful in the voicemail i was leaving about being late again.
i was working so hard on trying to calm myself down - i could feel that i was one step away from giving myself another ulcer ache. i am actually pretty proud of myself that i did that...
when i got to the place, though, my day started getting better.
deirdre (who told me about the position - thank you!!!) was brought down to introduce me to the persn i'd be interviewing with - i thought that was majorly cool : )
the interviews were all on the informal & brief side... and.. the good news...
i got the job!!!!
*bouncebouncebouce*
i go in for a training session on friday and then start full time on monday.
the hours could be better (they're 8:30-5) - but i'm sure not complaining! : )
i'll be doing tech support, mostly by email, with some calls...
i am just very excited about this...

and now i am prolly gonna try & relax a bit & then decide if i wanna go out to celebrate : )