![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
it just doesn't get any better
Jan. 19th, 2001 10:51 amso far, today sucks. today blows. today needs to be blown up.
at around 4am i was woken up by people being loud somewhere in the building. up until it persitsed till 5am and was obviously coming from our apartment. so i got up to find out what the hell is going on.
turns out matty decided to have a party.
without telling anyone.
he thought that since once in a while we have people over after MR wednesdays, its ok to invite like 15-25 people, play music and generally party.
nevermind that we all check with each other when bringing more then a couple people home, no matter what hour it is.
nevermind that the times we haven't checked with him, its because he doesn't work, doesn't keep sane hours & can disappear for long periouds of time. the rest of us work around 9-5 hours, sleep at home on weeknights, and try to get to bed at reasonable hours.
*roar*
so from 4am on, didn't sleep well at all. the fact that the heater in our room hasn't been working well at all didn't help one bit either.
but it gets worse from there.
when i get up to get ready for work, there's still people around. talk about some f*cking privacy - i don't enjoy having to deal with people en route to the morning shower & didn't appreciate being subjected to that one single bit.
i hurried ot get dressed, and then asked bill for the money he'd gotten out of the ATM for me last night.
well, there's a can of worms.
bill left his wallet in his coat, in the kitchen, on the couch.
by the time we went to look for it, the coat was in a pile with other coats next to the couch, the wallet was not in its pocket but ont he floor, and it was missing $280. money for rent & to pay me back for his license fees.
i flipped out.
i was seeing red.
not only did matty have a party when he totally should not have, but this party has left me $280 short, at a point in my life when every fucking penny matters!
matty claims he's going to get the money back for me. all i can say is that he better, and that maybe if i wasn't such an angry person, i'd forgive him. but the way i see it, getting that money to me is his responsibilty and the least he can do. i can't think of anything that would make me forgive him for this bullshit.
to top it off, i'm going to beed to have a talk with becky. she invited like 7 people to the house, telling matty that she's allowed to because she's bill's sister. fuck that shit. only people that live there can invite people there without having expressed permission for every single person. not to mention that it was matty's party - wtf was the point of going there with 7 peopleon the excuse that she's bill's sister?! if bill & i aren't there for it, it doesn't matter one bit if they're good friends.
so yes, i'm quite the angry person today.
so much for my hopes of having a better day, of maybe getting myself to a point i could consider being out & social for the weekend.
but nope... now all contact with people seems like a bad idea.
*sigh*
i just need to disappear for a while.
almost wish i could just take off for jersey & stay there for a week or so.
at least work is quiet today.
good thing, too, i am so close to losing my shit just from remembering this morning, any extra stress may be too much.
also makes me wonder what to do about tonight.
bill needs to go to MR at some point to get some of the missing money, but i can't fathom going to the club right now. originally, we were going to head up to nashua, stop by headlines, and then do something around there, btu now i am not sure if i can even handle that.
maybe i should just go to NJ *sigh*
at around 4am i was woken up by people being loud somewhere in the building. up until it persitsed till 5am and was obviously coming from our apartment. so i got up to find out what the hell is going on.
turns out matty decided to have a party.
without telling anyone.
he thought that since once in a while we have people over after MR wednesdays, its ok to invite like 15-25 people, play music and generally party.
nevermind that we all check with each other when bringing more then a couple people home, no matter what hour it is.
nevermind that the times we haven't checked with him, its because he doesn't work, doesn't keep sane hours & can disappear for long periouds of time. the rest of us work around 9-5 hours, sleep at home on weeknights, and try to get to bed at reasonable hours.
*roar*
so from 4am on, didn't sleep well at all. the fact that the heater in our room hasn't been working well at all didn't help one bit either.
but it gets worse from there.
when i get up to get ready for work, there's still people around. talk about some f*cking privacy - i don't enjoy having to deal with people en route to the morning shower & didn't appreciate being subjected to that one single bit.
i hurried ot get dressed, and then asked bill for the money he'd gotten out of the ATM for me last night.
well, there's a can of worms.
bill left his wallet in his coat, in the kitchen, on the couch.
by the time we went to look for it, the coat was in a pile with other coats next to the couch, the wallet was not in its pocket but ont he floor, and it was missing $280. money for rent & to pay me back for his license fees.
i flipped out.
i was seeing red.
not only did matty have a party when he totally should not have, but this party has left me $280 short, at a point in my life when every fucking penny matters!
matty claims he's going to get the money back for me. all i can say is that he better, and that maybe if i wasn't such an angry person, i'd forgive him. but the way i see it, getting that money to me is his responsibilty and the least he can do. i can't think of anything that would make me forgive him for this bullshit.
to top it off, i'm going to beed to have a talk with becky. she invited like 7 people to the house, telling matty that she's allowed to because she's bill's sister. fuck that shit. only people that live there can invite people there without having expressed permission for every single person. not to mention that it was matty's party - wtf was the point of going there with 7 peopleon the excuse that she's bill's sister?! if bill & i aren't there for it, it doesn't matter one bit if they're good friends.
so yes, i'm quite the angry person today.
so much for my hopes of having a better day, of maybe getting myself to a point i could consider being out & social for the weekend.
but nope... now all contact with people seems like a bad idea.
*sigh*
i just need to disappear for a while.
almost wish i could just take off for jersey & stay there for a week or so.
at least work is quiet today.
good thing, too, i am so close to losing my shit just from remembering this morning, any extra stress may be too much.
also makes me wonder what to do about tonight.
bill needs to go to MR at some point to get some of the missing money, but i can't fathom going to the club right now. originally, we were going to head up to nashua, stop by headlines, and then do something around there, btu now i am not sure if i can even handle that.
maybe i should just go to NJ *sigh*
