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Aug. 13th, 2002 10:34 ami'm feeling off today...
hopefully it'll get better as i de-grogg more...
i usually wake up a few times during the night... last night, i had my AC set to 73 and kept waking up chilly. but i liked it - i coccooned myself in my blanket and felt comfortable there - to the point that i didn't mind waking up because i got to savor that feeling : )
and then the alarm started ringing : (
i've also noticed i'm a bit less neurotic about checking the time when i wake up, but i think a lot of that has to do with the fact that i've accepted that its light out for a while while i can still sleep. as fall settles in, it'll prolly change back : /
and i'm really bad about new clothes - as soon as i get something new, i feel the need to wear it out. it took effort to talk myself out of wearing the new boots today. and i think i'm actually rather happy with the purchase - just gotta wear them out somewhere i won't melt in them to make the craving go away...
i'm curious to see if i'll pull off being a good kid tonight - i should read the chapters on schizophrenia and personality disorders. right now, though, i'm really unthrilled with the prospect. in fact, i think its cabin fever poking out again. i think its taunting me because in reality, i'm quite broke, spent way too much money between last Wednesday and yesterday (but i was a good kid for like a week before that!), and i've never been good at accepting that something that i want may not be optimal.
by this time next week, i will be class-less.
in theory, i hope this experience will teach me to do more with my evenings after i get home from work, but i don't know how much i can make that reality... and i should really get my ass in gear about signing up for the online course i want.
hopefully it'll get better as i de-grogg more...
i usually wake up a few times during the night... last night, i had my AC set to 73 and kept waking up chilly. but i liked it - i coccooned myself in my blanket and felt comfortable there - to the point that i didn't mind waking up because i got to savor that feeling : )
and then the alarm started ringing : (
i've also noticed i'm a bit less neurotic about checking the time when i wake up, but i think a lot of that has to do with the fact that i've accepted that its light out for a while while i can still sleep. as fall settles in, it'll prolly change back : /
and i'm really bad about new clothes - as soon as i get something new, i feel the need to wear it out. it took effort to talk myself out of wearing the new boots today. and i think i'm actually rather happy with the purchase - just gotta wear them out somewhere i won't melt in them to make the craving go away...
i'm curious to see if i'll pull off being a good kid tonight - i should read the chapters on schizophrenia and personality disorders. right now, though, i'm really unthrilled with the prospect. in fact, i think its cabin fever poking out again. i think its taunting me because in reality, i'm quite broke, spent way too much money between last Wednesday and yesterday (but i was a good kid for like a week before that!), and i've never been good at accepting that something that i want may not be optimal.
by this time next week, i will be class-less.
in theory, i hope this experience will teach me to do more with my evenings after i get home from work, but i don't know how much i can make that reality... and i should really get my ass in gear about signing up for the online course i want.
