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Oct. 14th, 2002 11:56 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendollits Monday.
i woke up thinking it was Friday, which is making me scared this week will be a repeat of last week. i certainly hope that doesn't happen.
i've had a pretty up and down weekend.
Friday night started off rocky.
then i went to the club, which was a good time. there was sushi, (yay!), he was being a (very good) sugar daddy and i got plastered.
good time, overall, until i got home. within a half hour of being too drunk i realized i had two choices - keep eating bread, drink water slowly and sit this out for a couple of hours or gulp down water, puke and go to sleep. i ended up going with the latter option.
the first time i woke up on Saturday was 9am. i thought this was way too early, and kept trying to fall back asleep. and it felt like i just couldn't... but when i looked back at the clock, expecting to see 10am, i saw that it was nearly 1. oops.
got up, was very happy to have a breakfast of a cup of tea with a caviar sandwich (caviar left over from Thursday night's dinner) and contemplated how the best dinner leftovers are ones you're actually excited to have for breakfast.
i then watched terminator for class, and came to the realization i had never seen it before; i had only seen the second one. i was actually impressed by parts of the movie.
then, i spent the afternoon cleaning and working out an issue with her. hit a really rough patch in there and thought i might even cancel the evening plans, but felt better around 6 or 7.
the way it passed was weird. i'm still working through that one.
i went to two parties on Saturday night, and had fun at both : )
yesterday was a lazy day.
woke up late, got up later, breakfast happened around 3 or 4.
i had an offer to join family friends, who were in town for a couple of days, but i ended up never even calling them as it was around 6 before i started pulling my head out of my ass.
i got home close to 8, spent a little bit of time online, and then went to go shower & get ready for seeing jello biafra.
i think pope tom's description of 'entertaning' is correct. definately an experience i'm glad i had, definately something i would've regretted missing but i wasn't blown away, overly impressed or eager to repeat it. of course i also feel really bad because i was wicked tired, the show ran much later then i expected and i was nodding in and out for like the last hour and a half : /
sleep was good when i got home : )
the room was freezing this morning, but my blanket was nice and warm. it made me stay in bed later then i should have - even pulling my arm out from under the covers to hit snooze was hard!
today's pleasantly slow, aside from the fact that the ratio of annoying/pleasant customers is tipped way on the wrong side. just further proof that murphy's law still works, right?
also, it looks like the trip to costa rica is on hiatus.
i need to figure out wtf i want to do and who i want to do it with.
its clicked that the reason i've been so overwhelmed by some of the stuff in my life right now is because i am such a control freak. the situation has a lot of my life riding on it, its up in the air, and me doing all i can to try and make it work just isn't enough because so much of it depends on other people. and of course it doesn't help that some of the other people don't have the same goals or the same priorities. ...whenever i stop at pushing that knowledge away i get extremely overwhelmed and panicky. and i so wish it was possible for me to just fix the situation. *sigh* but if i had that much money to spare, i wouldn't be here in the first place, right?
i woke up thinking it was Friday, which is making me scared this week will be a repeat of last week. i certainly hope that doesn't happen.
i've had a pretty up and down weekend.
Friday night started off rocky.
then i went to the club, which was a good time. there was sushi, (yay!), he was being a (very good) sugar daddy and i got plastered.
good time, overall, until i got home. within a half hour of being too drunk i realized i had two choices - keep eating bread, drink water slowly and sit this out for a couple of hours or gulp down water, puke and go to sleep. i ended up going with the latter option.
the first time i woke up on Saturday was 9am. i thought this was way too early, and kept trying to fall back asleep. and it felt like i just couldn't... but when i looked back at the clock, expecting to see 10am, i saw that it was nearly 1. oops.
got up, was very happy to have a breakfast of a cup of tea with a caviar sandwich (caviar left over from Thursday night's dinner) and contemplated how the best dinner leftovers are ones you're actually excited to have for breakfast.
i then watched terminator for class, and came to the realization i had never seen it before; i had only seen the second one. i was actually impressed by parts of the movie.
then, i spent the afternoon cleaning and working out an issue with her. hit a really rough patch in there and thought i might even cancel the evening plans, but felt better around 6 or 7.
the way it passed was weird. i'm still working through that one.
i went to two parties on Saturday night, and had fun at both : )
yesterday was a lazy day.
woke up late, got up later, breakfast happened around 3 or 4.
i had an offer to join family friends, who were in town for a couple of days, but i ended up never even calling them as it was around 6 before i started pulling my head out of my ass.
i got home close to 8, spent a little bit of time online, and then went to go shower & get ready for seeing jello biafra.
i think pope tom's description of 'entertaning' is correct. definately an experience i'm glad i had, definately something i would've regretted missing but i wasn't blown away, overly impressed or eager to repeat it. of course i also feel really bad because i was wicked tired, the show ran much later then i expected and i was nodding in and out for like the last hour and a half : /
sleep was good when i got home : )
the room was freezing this morning, but my blanket was nice and warm. it made me stay in bed later then i should have - even pulling my arm out from under the covers to hit snooze was hard!
today's pleasantly slow, aside from the fact that the ratio of annoying/pleasant customers is tipped way on the wrong side. just further proof that murphy's law still works, right?
also, it looks like the trip to costa rica is on hiatus.
i need to figure out wtf i want to do and who i want to do it with.
its clicked that the reason i've been so overwhelmed by some of the stuff in my life right now is because i am such a control freak. the situation has a lot of my life riding on it, its up in the air, and me doing all i can to try and make it work just isn't enough because so much of it depends on other people. and of course it doesn't help that some of the other people don't have the same goals or the same priorities. ...whenever i stop at pushing that knowledge away i get extremely overwhelmed and panicky. and i so wish it was possible for me to just fix the situation. *sigh* but if i had that much money to spare, i wouldn't be here in the first place, right?
