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[elvendoll]

three years ago tomorrow i talked about what she and i did during her visit here - which included watching a bunch of movies, and about stupid bureaucratic bullshit my school put me through. i really want to be done with the 10-year-plan already
two years ago today it was snowing, i was sleepy and was thinking about running away.
a year ago tomorrow we didn't have internet access, i saw amelie and really wanted a black velvet catsuit. amusingly enough, i was wearing the catsuit i ended up getting yesterday.

this morning is going very slowly.
i had issues falling asleep last night, again, and it was at least 2:30 before i fell asleep. i don't quite know how to change this.
the power went out overnight, but luckily for me, i am neurotic. i woke up once around when it was supposed to ring for the first time, and then dozed & awoke again twice before braving the cold that was beyond the blankets.

i looked over some journal entries this morning, and for some reason am left with mild anxiety. i haven't yet pinpointed the why, but i think it may be because i saw myself being pulled in a lot of different directions and then not following through on them.
i'm trying to focus on looking forward to tonight (after class); going to a movie with him sounds so perfect.

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[rednikki.livejournal.com]

sleep: try consuming nothing with caffeine in it after noon. It worked like a charm for me.

[elvendoll.livejournal.com]

luckily, i'm not at a point where something like that will give me headaches for the rest of the day, but if i stop consuming caffeine at noon, i'd sleep right through class...

what i did yesterday was have a cup of english breakfast & ginseng tea when i got home at 9 (well, it was 10 by then), to make my brain fizzle enough to do homework, and i'm not sure how much that did for either perking me up when i needed it or keeping me up when i didn't.
unfortunately, i think my biggest problem is habit - i'm used to mellow/vegging time for 2-3 hours after getting home, and then getting a second wave. only now the second wave coincides with bedtime.

i do want to be better about drinking chamomille before going to bed - i think it actually works to calm/mellow me out.

[rednikki.livejournal.com]

Caffeine stays in your system for about 8 hours. I actually stay awake for class by taking ephedrine just before. It's in diet pills like Xenical, although many of those have caffeine, too. I get the ones that have no caffeine. It has a 3-4 hour duration, and when it cuts out it REALLY cuts out.

Caffeine actually is not a normal stimulant - what it does is blocks your body's ability to feel fatigue, which blocks the ability to sleep.

[elvendoll.livejournal.com]

i think i want to avoid taking anything new considering the amount of change i'm putting my body through right now...

caffeine doesn't have an overly strong affect on me - it takes 2-4 cups of tea to get me going in the morning, and unless i have over 2 cups of coffee within 2 hours of trying to sleep, it doesn't keep me up, either...
*giggle* considering it lasts 8 hours, i doubt i've had more then a day's worth of caffeine-free time in the past couple of years, and at the worst point of my (defeated!) caffeine addiction, i had 3 double (or triple?) espressos (with tequila) and barely made it home before falling asleep ((i had taken like 2 boxes of vivarin in the two weeks prior to that night))