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Feb. 3rd, 2003 09:48 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendollicky morning.
i want a do-over on last night. i want to not be broken. i want to not feel like there's a big unresolved problem.
i had bad dreams overnight.
first, my mom and i were at some sort of beach cabin, and something had gone wrong with my mom & stepdad and he was being evil & we needed to hide/run away from him.
the next thing i remember is we were on the (flimsy) balcony of our moscow appartment, watching parachutes drop from a distance. only each time one falls, there is a big explosion and a part of the skyline crumbles.
by the time i woke up, they were close enough to send a huge concrete boulder at us.
oddly, i wasn't really worried about my own safety. i remember worrying over the fact that we hadn't the slightest idea of where my grandparents could be, and being devastated as bits of the skyline (which included more then one city) would just disintegrate in front of my eyes.
i woke up about a minute before the first ring of the alarm.
i reset the alarm time, went back to sleep and had more unpleasant dreams that i don't remember.
and now i'm here, grumpy as hell and the cramps aren't making it any better.
i think that if it wasn't for the fact that i worked from home on friday, have this friday off and work from home next monday, i'd definately consider taking a mental health day today - i feel like i'm less then a half an inch from snapping.
here's hoping i snap out of it soon.
i want a do-over on last night. i want to not be broken. i want to not feel like there's a big unresolved problem.
i had bad dreams overnight.
first, my mom and i were at some sort of beach cabin, and something had gone wrong with my mom & stepdad and he was being evil & we needed to hide/run away from him.
the next thing i remember is we were on the (flimsy) balcony of our moscow appartment, watching parachutes drop from a distance. only each time one falls, there is a big explosion and a part of the skyline crumbles.
by the time i woke up, they were close enough to send a huge concrete boulder at us.
oddly, i wasn't really worried about my own safety. i remember worrying over the fact that we hadn't the slightest idea of where my grandparents could be, and being devastated as bits of the skyline (which included more then one city) would just disintegrate in front of my eyes.
i woke up about a minute before the first ring of the alarm.
i reset the alarm time, went back to sleep and had more unpleasant dreams that i don't remember.
and now i'm here, grumpy as hell and the cramps aren't making it any better.
i think that if it wasn't for the fact that i worked from home on friday, have this friday off and work from home next monday, i'd definately consider taking a mental health day today - i feel like i'm less then a half an inch from snapping.
here's hoping i snap out of it soon.
