still here

[elvendoll]

i think the operation itself went great - i remember being in the chair, with a mask over my nose and then i woke up, in a somewhat cold room, with a person i recognized as tobiwatching over me about 10 minutes after i came too - i'm not quite sure if it took so long because my eyes couldn't focus or because my brain wasn't making the connection.

around the time i got home, i started drooling blood. my mouth was swollen to the point that i could barely use my tongue to push mashed potatoes from the front of my mouth to the back. and i'm insanely paranoid about doing anything that could leave me with dry sockets.
after that, i took a fun pill just as the novocaine was starting to wear off, and dozed off when it kicked in.
when i woke up, i was a little more here and had full use of my tongue and had pineapple chunks (on owen's advice) and then more mashed potatoes and then a half a pill of fun stuff and back to lala land.

and now i'm up again... should prolly eat something, but i'm getting really tired of having the taste of blood in my mouth, of the amount of fear i feel each time i swallow because i don't want to give myself dry sockets, and soon enough, i'm bound to get beyond sick of mashed potatoes. unfortunately, the pills need starchy stuff in my stomach before taking them, and i can't think of anything else starchy that i could eat.

overall, i'm very glad i'm not in searing pain, that my jaw looks smaller then a chipmunks and that overall, i'm ok.

i just wish i could stop being this paranoid, lose the headache i've developed and be able to eat something yummy. but life isn't always fun, is it?

and huge thanks to tobi for babysitting me today.