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Feb. 12th, 2003 10:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendollright now, i have a headache and a mouthache, and i should prolly have more tea and come advil instead of writing here, but i'm just in that type of mood.
i also can't decide if i should shower and go to bed early or be a good kid and do homework. its more that i want to shower and go to bed early, but know i will regret that tomorrow *sigh*
i haven't updated much, & i think this entry is going to be scattered.
today, i came home and saw dangerous liasons was on.![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
kittypie once told me that i absolutely had to watch it, so i parked myself on the couch and am forcing myself to not see it as being unproductive, as i really enjoyed the movie. kira was also right about how short cruel intentions falls in comparison.
got caught off guard earlier by catching a friend crying. its been a long time since i've had not-pms-induced tears and much longer since i've seen anyone else cry. and it has been a long time since i've seen someone so not-on-guard as to get hurt like that. it really bothers me that i had such a hard time coming up with something to say and it really bothers me that i feel so incredulous at the lack of walls i saw in my friend. the latter makes me feel so incredibly jaded and dirty.
its also come out as to where my mom gets her attitude towards doctors. my grandma is succumbing to insanity and wants a surgery performed on her feet that all doctors expect for this particular one tell her would be complicated and painful. but this one dr says it will be easy and pain-free, and she is not letting anyone in the family talk her out of it. and, then she tells me that she doesn't know why my mom has been stressy and yelling at my sisters. with all luck, tomorrow my jaw will feel much better then it does now and i will try talking to her again.
(i guess i shouldn't be surprised that my whole family is nuts, huh?)
aside from that, life has been going slowly and surely, i think.
my mouth is acting up more then it has been today, which means its either an off day or i haven't been taken good enough care of it. i really hope its not the latter.
class is interesting, though, again, i forgot to bring beverages with me and missed some of the lecture. and i'll appreciate the break from class president's day gives me.
i feel like i've barely been home, and i'm not sure how much of that is an illusion. my room is still cold, but i have 3 blankets on top of my bed and they make a really cool nest that i really hate leaving in the mornings.
and there's more i want to write, but the headache is killing my tone.
i also can't decide if i should shower and go to bed early or be a good kid and do homework. its more that i want to shower and go to bed early, but know i will regret that tomorrow *sigh*
i haven't updated much, & i think this entry is going to be scattered.
today, i came home and saw dangerous liasons was on.
kittypie once told me that i absolutely had to watch it, so i parked myself on the couch and am forcing myself to not see it as being unproductive, as i really enjoyed the movie. kira was also right about how short cruel intentions falls in comparison.got caught off guard earlier by catching a friend crying. its been a long time since i've had not-pms-induced tears and much longer since i've seen anyone else cry. and it has been a long time since i've seen someone so not-on-guard as to get hurt like that. it really bothers me that i had such a hard time coming up with something to say and it really bothers me that i feel so incredulous at the lack of walls i saw in my friend. the latter makes me feel so incredibly jaded and dirty.
its also come out as to where my mom gets her attitude towards doctors. my grandma is succumbing to insanity and wants a surgery performed on her feet that all doctors expect for this particular one tell her would be complicated and painful. but this one dr says it will be easy and pain-free, and she is not letting anyone in the family talk her out of it. and, then she tells me that she doesn't know why my mom has been stressy and yelling at my sisters. with all luck, tomorrow my jaw will feel much better then it does now and i will try talking to her again.
(i guess i shouldn't be surprised that my whole family is nuts, huh?)
aside from that, life has been going slowly and surely, i think.
my mouth is acting up more then it has been today, which means its either an off day or i haven't been taken good enough care of it. i really hope its not the latter.
class is interesting, though, again, i forgot to bring beverages with me and missed some of the lecture. and i'll appreciate the break from class president's day gives me.
i feel like i've barely been home, and i'm not sure how much of that is an illusion. my room is still cold, but i have 3 blankets on top of my bed and they make a really cool nest that i really hate leaving in the mornings.
and there's more i want to write, but the headache is killing my tone.
