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Mar. 11th, 2003 12:08 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendollso i haven't been updating much lately.
i feel like i'm in a bit of a rut.
i'm behind on homework, i'm overwhelmed by my financial situation and i've just been feeling all too tired, sleepy and worn thin, especially as i'm not getting much of anything done.
i was supposed to snap out of it this week, but i'm postponing that till next week. and will try to take more happy pills this week, too.
the school stuff is frustrating on so many levels.
first, i'm two weeks behind on the reading. i hate playing catchup.
then, the professor finally talked about our assignments. most of the class isn't taking it for credit, so he hadn't mentioned any assignments since the first day, when he mentioned considering giving us take-home tests. well, he never leaned in that direction - its going to be a 6-8 page paper, with "three whole weeks" to decide on a topic, research and write. hello, courier new. and he said this paper is like a warmup for the one that will be due in may.
although, the work isn't even the problem. i'm just not used to lecture classes like that - he goes in, talks for two hours, and that's it. he doesn't explicitly connect the lectures to the readings and he doesn't field more then 5 questions per class. i'll be glad to get back to more discussion-based classes this summer.
speaking of summer, the summer might end up being my last classes at umb. taking stock of the opposition, i don't place huge odds on romney's atrocity passing, but i feel like i have to prepare myself for the worst. and i'm beyond unthrilled at the thought of needing to transfer.
the money thing is just overwhelming. worst case scenario, i'll be out of debt by august. its just beyond frustrating because there's very little of my spending that i can cut and all the expenses that are coming up are important.
aside from the fact that the last two weeks have flown away with me barely noticing, life's been ok. the weekend in new york was amazing.... that Monday i pretty much vegged after class, Tuesday was spent pms'ing and not dealing, Wednesday was contact, which struck me as being rather mediocre, but the evening was still a good experience. Thursday i was exhausted by the time i got home and barely functioned enough to do laundry and pack, and Friday was the start of the trip to vermont.
vermont was nice - very chill and mellow.
today has been exhausting, in that "it really shouldn't be wearing me out this much" sort of way. the javascript class was good, but didn't get as into it as i was hoping. the time i got to spend at home flew by and then class was a little frustrating. and i've just been vegging and mulling over stuff ever since.
my stomach has been acting up a lot lately, and i'd been bad about reeling in my diet. i finally made a bunch of buckwheat today, but then ate a burnt grilled cheese sandwich and now i can't tell if i'm coming down with a cold or if my stomach is making the rest of me feel that weird. with all luck, if i eat well for a week, i'll be able to go back to eating just mostly-well again.
and there's been more i'd been wanting to write, at odd moments, it just hasn't happened.
i feel like i'm in a bit of a rut.
i'm behind on homework, i'm overwhelmed by my financial situation and i've just been feeling all too tired, sleepy and worn thin, especially as i'm not getting much of anything done.
i was supposed to snap out of it this week, but i'm postponing that till next week. and will try to take more happy pills this week, too.
the school stuff is frustrating on so many levels.
first, i'm two weeks behind on the reading. i hate playing catchup.
then, the professor finally talked about our assignments. most of the class isn't taking it for credit, so he hadn't mentioned any assignments since the first day, when he mentioned considering giving us take-home tests. well, he never leaned in that direction - its going to be a 6-8 page paper, with "three whole weeks" to decide on a topic, research and write. hello, courier new. and he said this paper is like a warmup for the one that will be due in may.
although, the work isn't even the problem. i'm just not used to lecture classes like that - he goes in, talks for two hours, and that's it. he doesn't explicitly connect the lectures to the readings and he doesn't field more then 5 questions per class. i'll be glad to get back to more discussion-based classes this summer.
speaking of summer, the summer might end up being my last classes at umb. taking stock of the opposition, i don't place huge odds on romney's atrocity passing, but i feel like i have to prepare myself for the worst. and i'm beyond unthrilled at the thought of needing to transfer.
the money thing is just overwhelming. worst case scenario, i'll be out of debt by august. its just beyond frustrating because there's very little of my spending that i can cut and all the expenses that are coming up are important.
aside from the fact that the last two weeks have flown away with me barely noticing, life's been ok. the weekend in new york was amazing.... that Monday i pretty much vegged after class, Tuesday was spent pms'ing and not dealing, Wednesday was contact, which struck me as being rather mediocre, but the evening was still a good experience. Thursday i was exhausted by the time i got home and barely functioned enough to do laundry and pack, and Friday was the start of the trip to vermont.
vermont was nice - very chill and mellow.
today has been exhausting, in that "it really shouldn't be wearing me out this much" sort of way. the javascript class was good, but didn't get as into it as i was hoping. the time i got to spend at home flew by and then class was a little frustrating. and i've just been vegging and mulling over stuff ever since.
my stomach has been acting up a lot lately, and i'd been bad about reeling in my diet. i finally made a bunch of buckwheat today, but then ate a burnt grilled cheese sandwich and now i can't tell if i'm coming down with a cold or if my stomach is making the rest of me feel that weird. with all luck, if i eat well for a week, i'll be able to go back to eating just mostly-well again.
and there's been more i'd been wanting to write, at odd moments, it just hasn't happened.
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