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Mar. 18th, 2003 05:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendollstuff:
i keep feeling off. i don't know what is causing it and i just want it to stop.
i'm nauseous. i've been nauseous more often in the past week and i'm damn sick and tired of it. i feel like i need to eat, but the minute i think of swallowing anything, i feel like i wouldn't be able to get it down my throat (and its not unheard of for me to start gagging when trying to eat something my body doesn't want to be eating. its really far from pleasant)
i'm really hoping whatever this is, it will pass, and soon. (of course, the fact that looking at the news is making me feel queasy doesn't help a thing)
i should probably look into one of those stomach-cleansing regimes if it doesn't pass within the next couple of days. of course the other option would be to go out, eat something overly greasy and fried for a couple of meals and schedule a day or so with porcelain goddess *twitch*
no paper topics from the professor last night. and i'm drawing a total blank. i have to buckle down this week and catch up on the readings. i also need to pick a topic before the end of the weekend, so i can start doing some work on it on Sunday, and with all luck, write/finish it Monday night. i really like the idea of having this done super early.
in an ideal world, there would be little gnomes that would do my laundry and tidy up my room. it isn't that bad right now, i just haven't had the time and/or energy to do it yet and i'd really like to have a clean room.
a not-cluttered kitchen would be great, too, and its state is partially my fault, too.
overall, i think my biggest problem is that i'm not feeling at home in any sense of the word.
i don't feel at home in my body, because it keeps hurting me.
i don't feel at home in my head because i keep flipping between being behind on my inbox here, behind and feeling a bit lost in schoolwork and upset/disappointed over what i'm seeing in the news.
i don't feel at home at my house because its messy and i haven't done what i need to to make it not-nessy
i don't feel at home here because there's a bunch of things going on that make it look closer to where i'm glad i'm not.
per her little poll, i think what would help me right now is a warm afternoon, spent doing schoolwork somewhere out in nature, maybe with one other person doing their own work, and then a nicely loud and fun evening out. all while getting all nutrients via IV, and not having my stomach be mad at me over anything.
(hours later)
so, after a yummy lunch and a few (much needed) minutes outdoors, i'm feeling much better.
(posting later, again)
i keep feeling off. i don't know what is causing it and i just want it to stop.
i'm nauseous. i've been nauseous more often in the past week and i'm damn sick and tired of it. i feel like i need to eat, but the minute i think of swallowing anything, i feel like i wouldn't be able to get it down my throat (and its not unheard of for me to start gagging when trying to eat something my body doesn't want to be eating. its really far from pleasant)
i'm really hoping whatever this is, it will pass, and soon. (of course, the fact that looking at the news is making me feel queasy doesn't help a thing)
i should probably look into one of those stomach-cleansing regimes if it doesn't pass within the next couple of days. of course the other option would be to go out, eat something overly greasy and fried for a couple of meals and schedule a day or so with porcelain goddess *twitch*
no paper topics from the professor last night. and i'm drawing a total blank. i have to buckle down this week and catch up on the readings. i also need to pick a topic before the end of the weekend, so i can start doing some work on it on Sunday, and with all luck, write/finish it Monday night. i really like the idea of having this done super early.
in an ideal world, there would be little gnomes that would do my laundry and tidy up my room. it isn't that bad right now, i just haven't had the time and/or energy to do it yet and i'd really like to have a clean room.
a not-cluttered kitchen would be great, too, and its state is partially my fault, too.
overall, i think my biggest problem is that i'm not feeling at home in any sense of the word.
i don't feel at home in my body, because it keeps hurting me.
i don't feel at home in my head because i keep flipping between being behind on my inbox here, behind and feeling a bit lost in schoolwork and upset/disappointed over what i'm seeing in the news.
i don't feel at home at my house because its messy and i haven't done what i need to to make it not-nessy
i don't feel at home here because there's a bunch of things going on that make it look closer to where i'm glad i'm not.
per her little poll, i think what would help me right now is a warm afternoon, spent doing schoolwork somewhere out in nature, maybe with one other person doing their own work, and then a nicely loud and fun evening out. all while getting all nutrients via IV, and not having my stomach be mad at me over anything.
(hours later)
so, after a yummy lunch and a few (much needed) minutes outdoors, i'm feeling much better.
(posting later, again)
