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Mar. 28th, 2003 11:33 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendollso i'm in NJ again.
working from home, hoping to make it back down tonight. without catching yet another ticket *twitch* its all about timing, really. i think i want to erase about 80% of the last two days. and i really want this month to be over.
next month should be happy and fun, right?
i feel like shit for being the anxiety and stress ball that i am. i'm in a not-so-pretty spot, but its really far from being all bad, and it would be much better if i didn't overreact to the negative stuff. the car/finance stuff sits at the back of my head and the school stuff sits at the bottom of my stomach and i can't seem to move past those weights.
but there's happy stuff i really need to concentrate on.
like the fact that i'll be in europe really fucking soon.
like the fact that i'll see![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
kittypie soon after that, for a really wonderful and great occasion.
like the fact that there's amazing summer plans a-brewing
my stepdad also gave me some good news. unlike it was previously thought, my tires can most likely last me for another 6 months, giving me another year to buy new ones. i still hadn't wrapped my mind as to how to fit that into my "budget" so there's no extra in it, but its definitely a part of a weight off my shoulders. now if something magical could happen to the grand in tuition and the grand of dentist + irs.
gah. i'm sitting here with a nicely sized anxiety attack that isn't subsiding. time to go get extra happypills.
a part of me is even kicking around the idea of asking my grandpa for a loan so that my cards aren't charged up to the max. but, debt is debt and wanting to have it less visible is stupid. knowing that they'll worry if i ask for a loan is even worse. i guess one of the things that's getting to me the moment is not knowing how i got here. i spent a lot of money December and January, but because i was able to "cover" it, there's a disconnect with seeing how it got me here. because what i owe for now is all things that i've charged recently. and if it wasn't if it wasn't for the dentist and irs and wanting to register for summer classes now i'd be much better off, but i'd still not be debt-free. *roars*
and it looks like debbie is having 3 birthdays this year. her birthday, a bat mitzvah party for her friends and a bat mitzvah party for the relatives. i think i want to find her genealogy software for her actual birthday (for purely selfish reasons... but noone ever said i was a good sister) and i keep going back and forth on getting her diamond earrings for the bat mitzvah. i want to get her something she'll always like and will want to have even when she's older... and i don't know if buying poor-quality diamonds is worth it (opinions are more then welcome!)
working from home, hoping to make it back down tonight. without catching yet another ticket *twitch* its all about timing, really. i think i want to erase about 80% of the last two days. and i really want this month to be over.
next month should be happy and fun, right?
i feel like shit for being the anxiety and stress ball that i am. i'm in a not-so-pretty spot, but its really far from being all bad, and it would be much better if i didn't overreact to the negative stuff. the car/finance stuff sits at the back of my head and the school stuff sits at the bottom of my stomach and i can't seem to move past those weights.
but there's happy stuff i really need to concentrate on.
like the fact that i'll be in europe really fucking soon.
like the fact that i'll see
kittypie soon after that, for a really wonderful and great occasion.like the fact that there's amazing summer plans a-brewing
my stepdad also gave me some good news. unlike it was previously thought, my tires can most likely last me for another 6 months, giving me another year to buy new ones. i still hadn't wrapped my mind as to how to fit that into my "budget" so there's no extra in it, but its definitely a part of a weight off my shoulders. now if something magical could happen to the grand in tuition and the grand of dentist + irs.
gah. i'm sitting here with a nicely sized anxiety attack that isn't subsiding. time to go get extra happypills.
a part of me is even kicking around the idea of asking my grandpa for a loan so that my cards aren't charged up to the max. but, debt is debt and wanting to have it less visible is stupid. knowing that they'll worry if i ask for a loan is even worse. i guess one of the things that's getting to me the moment is not knowing how i got here. i spent a lot of money December and January, but because i was able to "cover" it, there's a disconnect with seeing how it got me here. because what i owe for now is all things that i've charged recently. and if it wasn't if it wasn't for the dentist and irs and wanting to register for summer classes now i'd be much better off, but i'd still not be debt-free. *roars*
and it looks like debbie is having 3 birthdays this year. her birthday, a bat mitzvah party for her friends and a bat mitzvah party for the relatives. i think i want to find her genealogy software for her actual birthday (for purely selfish reasons... but noone ever said i was a good sister) and i keep going back and forth on getting her diamond earrings for the bat mitzvah. i want to get her something she'll always like and will want to have even when she's older... and i don't know if buying poor-quality diamonds is worth it (opinions are more then welcome!)
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Tires
Date: 2003-03-28 08:38 am (UTC)*hugs* Just let me know when you'd be ready, if you're interested.
Re: Tires
Date: 2003-03-28 08:44 am (UTC)i think i will hold off on getting new ones until next year unless the ones i have get significantly worse.
i have brand new tires on my front wheels (i think - which ever are the most important ones) and the other ones are aging, but not as much as originally thought, so the current plan is to drive like this until next fall, when the front ones can be thrown on the back wheels and snow tires put onto the front ones. and this time next year, i'll buy two new tires for the front.
Re: Tires
Date: 2003-03-28 08:48 am (UTC)I'm not giving up my memebership anytime soon *drools* so I'll just look into it for me, and see how feasible it is.
*hugs*
Re: Tires
Date: 2003-03-28 09:01 am (UTC)If so, and you want company for a trip, let me know...
One of my roomates has a costco membership, but they only take cash or amex, and i don't have either...
Re: Tires
Date: 2003-03-28 03:36 pm (UTC)Re: Tires
Date: 2003-03-28 06:03 pm (UTC)Re: Tires
Date: 2003-04-01 05:32 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-03-31 05:53 pm (UTC)The Diamond Building is another option for nice earrings, and we can go drool on stuff we can't afford !
Kate