i feel so shitty...

[elvendoll]

its past 4:30.
i've cleaned up the room quite a bit, started on laundry...
and still no call from bill.
now if he's working an 8 hour shift, he should be getting out at 6... which means that to go get him i'd need to start getting ready like now...
and i'm furious.
i asked him yesterday to find out right away when he's getting off, and he didn't.
i asked him to call as soon as he finds out today.
and he obviously hasn't.
i tried calling there, just to subside my anger, but noone competent was near the phones...
so i realize i'm probably overreacting, but right now i'm tempted to just say fuck it and not go get him at all.
because i'm not in the mood for him calling to say 'ok, come get me now' when i'm not ready.
because i'm pissed that he has promised to do the dishes for days now and hasn't.
because he was supposed to do the laundry a week ago... and hasn't.
because i am letting him use my new desk in the room and it looks like shit after all stills he's had on it... not to mention how messy it is.

yeah, how is that for passive agressive?
its jsut that anger is just the one emotion i can't handle.
its pretty rare that i get really angry... but when i do it just tears me to pieces.