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Jul. 24th, 2003 02:56 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendollright now, i'm feeling ready to crack.
for the most part, its me fixating on something that i really(really) want and didn't have time for last night, and trying hard not to have a temper tantrum over it.
yesterday, i went to class after work and felt antsy there.
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sol3 in brookline, and had a very relaxing meal with him (and didn't even eat!)
went to MR for an hour, and danced more then i have in ages, partially because i wasn't dealing very well.
spent more time withsol3, but started dozing off from sheer exhaustion when i really needed 3 more hours to the day.
i've lost relatives, and not had it hit me like this.
its a combination of her age, how malicious and negligent it was, talking tojedi's mom and seeing a vague memory of her flash behind my eye lids.
i went to MR after moving past it, and then talked to jedi some more. i can't fathom what he and his family are going through.
i felt bad on a couple of occasions at the club - because of how off i was, i kept going from one "safe" person to another, and having a hard time being around anyone i don't know well.
today, well... i'd give almost anything for today to be a weekend-at-home day. but its not. i'm here for 10 hours to make up for leaving early to run errands last week, and then drive to NJ. right now, shooting myself in the foot sounds more pleasant - i'm just trying to concentrate on getting there, being fed a meal by my mom, without needing to cook or wash anything.
of course, it also frustrates me that, because of the timing, i still won't be able to get to bed early and get a decent night's sleep. and murphy's law will have me waking up early on Saturday one way or another.
for the most part, its me fixating on something that i really(really) want and didn't have time for last night, and trying hard not to have a temper tantrum over it.
yesterday, i went to class after work and felt antsy there.
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sol3 in brookline, and had a very relaxing meal with him (and didn't even eat!)went to MR for an hour, and danced more then i have in ages, partially because i wasn't dealing very well.
spent more time with
sol3, but started dozing off from sheer exhaustion when i really needed 3 more hours to the day.i've lost relatives, and not had it hit me like this.
its a combination of her age, how malicious and negligent it was, talking to
jedi's mom and seeing a vague memory of her flash behind my eye lids.i went to MR after moving past it, and then talked to jedi some more. i can't fathom what he and his family are going through.
i felt bad on a couple of occasions at the club - because of how off i was, i kept going from one "safe" person to another, and having a hard time being around anyone i don't know well.
today, well... i'd give almost anything for today to be a weekend-at-home day. but its not. i'm here for 10 hours to make up for leaving early to run errands last week, and then drive to NJ. right now, shooting myself in the foot sounds more pleasant - i'm just trying to concentrate on getting there, being fed a meal by my mom, without needing to cook or wash anything.
of course, it also frustrates me that, because of the timing, i still won't be able to get to bed early and get a decent night's sleep. and murphy's law will have me waking up early on Saturday one way or another.
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Date: 2003-07-24 11:57 am (UTC)Whoops!
Date: 2003-07-24 01:12 pm (UTC)email me with that sushi address again?
AND, let me know when you think you might be up for it yourself. I think we're looking at Saturday. Can I give you a buzz tomorrow once I find out my itinerary tonight? Like what clubs I'm doing and a general timetable? And my celly will work all weekend, no worries!
PS - did you find Hawver last night? I never saw him.