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Aug. 1st, 2003 01:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendolli'm having a 'feeling torn' morning.
on the one hand, i'm very frustrated with myself; part of what happens when i get frazzled is that i cut back on the productive things, because i don't have time for them, but i keep going with the fun things, because i need them for sanity, only the fun things don't recenter me for very long because i come back to the list of things i still need to do.
in theory, i wanted to get some shopping done... and some homework... and to clean my room.
more specifically, i wanted to sort of the clutter on top of the surfaces in my room, as those surfaces will be getting rearranged. also, i wanted to get cheapass framed prints, pop open the frames and stick my posters in there. i feel insanely behind.
but, on the other hand, some things that fall into fun are also priorities - like spending time with the people i care about. and some stuff, like tonight, i'm really looking forward to and resent my head for making me feel guilty for looking forward to it.
it just sucks because i had a bad/painful day yesterday, and was only out-of-work and awake for about 5 hours, but that's 5 hours that didn't include anything productive, in the crossing stuff off my list sort of way.
on the one hand, i'm very frustrated with myself; part of what happens when i get frazzled is that i cut back on the productive things, because i don't have time for them, but i keep going with the fun things, because i need them for sanity, only the fun things don't recenter me for very long because i come back to the list of things i still need to do.
in theory, i wanted to get some shopping done... and some homework... and to clean my room.
more specifically, i wanted to sort of the clutter on top of the surfaces in my room, as those surfaces will be getting rearranged. also, i wanted to get cheapass framed prints, pop open the frames and stick my posters in there. i feel insanely behind.
but, on the other hand, some things that fall into fun are also priorities - like spending time with the people i care about. and some stuff, like tonight, i'm really looking forward to and resent my head for making me feel guilty for looking forward to it.
it just sucks because i had a bad/painful day yesterday, and was only out-of-work and awake for about 5 hours, but that's 5 hours that didn't include anything productive, in the crossing stuff off my list sort of way.
