i can't feel that its halloween yet...
Oct. 31st, 2000 12:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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i didn't sleep well at all last night.
i remember twisting and turning a bunch... being actually wide awake on at least 3 occasions (i can't see the alarm clock from the bed & have no clue what time it was)
and i'm kinda pissed of at my body because before i used to be able to lay down and fall asleep, and now i twist and turn for what seems like long periods of time.
and considering that bill snores, zonking out ASAP has definite advantages...
and its just odd.. i used to be a really light sleeper - any disturbance in the force & i'd be wide awake, trying to pinpoint it. then, like halfway through my relationship with chris i trained myself to be able to fall asleep through computer clankings and became a deeper sleeper overall... and now its like my sleep pattern is out of whack again... any sounds while i'm trying to fall asleep start getting really annoying - to the point of almost angering me - and this includes computer clanking and snoring... but, in the morning, i can sleep through almost anything and have no problems falling back asleep after bill's alarm clock rings.
its like my body now takes way too long to fall asleep, and to hit deep sleep.
probably why i wake up unrested every morning.
its like sleep is just part of a daily ritual, but one that doesn't leave me feeling refreshed or anything.
so because i slept extra miserably, i let myself sleep in a bit this morning..
had a weird dream...
the precursor story to it is that in my NJ high school, there was this kid - rob ritzer. he was carla's friend/more then friend, and i only met him on a couple of occasions, and talked to him on the phone a few times. only i thought (and think) that he was just really cool...
by the end of junior year though (around the time carla was picked up be the 'cool' freaks and started pulling away from me) rob got expelled and went to live with his mother in the mddle of the country somewhere.
sometime senior year, carla said that rob called her, and the he's become a preppy kid, dropping his metal-head ways.
only somehow i never belived her.
and i've been meaning to look him up for a while now, and for some reason got around to it last night.
found zilch.
but, in my dream last night i was going to some store or another, and on the way out, some chick seems really familiar.
after some thought i realize that its this chick bridget - rob's girlfreind from that time period (and carla's arch enemy, at the same time)..
after some more moments of indecision, i decide to say hi to her... and wanting for some small talk before asking about rob, ask her how she and stuff, walking her to her car through this.
she follows small talk and stuff, puts her stuff in her car, and we get ready to say goodbye, saying it was ice to see each other & all... and finally i ask about rob.
she replies that she was wondering whether or not i was going to ask... and says that she hasn't heard from him since he moved away..
she drives off and i go looking for my car...
only i can't seem to remember where i parked it - because where i thought i did was another car..
i was searching for a couple of hours, with some random events happening, before realizing that my car must've ben stolen.....
some more really weird stuff went on after that, but its all too blurry...
so that bring me back to this morning.
the cup of coffee just didn't do enough, and the lack of job calls/emails is a bit disheartening.
i keep having these daydreams of how nice everything is going to be once i have a job and can have a savings account and stuff...
*bleagh*
something just better come through soon...
and damnit, i want to be excited about tonight!!!
i envy bill's excitement.
i so wish we were going to a party tonight... because the prospect of being outside all evening just scares me shitless considering my costume isn't the warmest thing around and my shoes not the best for walking.
*sigh*
and i keep thinking today is a wednesday and that i leave for NJ tomorrow...
i didn't sleep well at all last night.
i remember twisting and turning a bunch... being actually wide awake on at least 3 occasions (i can't see the alarm clock from the bed & have no clue what time it was)
and i'm kinda pissed of at my body because before i used to be able to lay down and fall asleep, and now i twist and turn for what seems like long periods of time.
and considering that bill snores, zonking out ASAP has definite advantages...
and its just odd.. i used to be a really light sleeper - any disturbance in the force & i'd be wide awake, trying to pinpoint it. then, like halfway through my relationship with chris i trained myself to be able to fall asleep through computer clankings and became a deeper sleeper overall... and now its like my sleep pattern is out of whack again... any sounds while i'm trying to fall asleep start getting really annoying - to the point of almost angering me - and this includes computer clanking and snoring... but, in the morning, i can sleep through almost anything and have no problems falling back asleep after bill's alarm clock rings.
its like my body now takes way too long to fall asleep, and to hit deep sleep.
probably why i wake up unrested every morning.
its like sleep is just part of a daily ritual, but one that doesn't leave me feeling refreshed or anything.
so because i slept extra miserably, i let myself sleep in a bit this morning..
had a weird dream...
the precursor story to it is that in my NJ high school, there was this kid - rob ritzer. he was carla's friend/more then friend, and i only met him on a couple of occasions, and talked to him on the phone a few times. only i thought (and think) that he was just really cool...
by the end of junior year though (around the time carla was picked up be the 'cool' freaks and started pulling away from me) rob got expelled and went to live with his mother in the mddle of the country somewhere.
sometime senior year, carla said that rob called her, and the he's become a preppy kid, dropping his metal-head ways.
only somehow i never belived her.
and i've been meaning to look him up for a while now, and for some reason got around to it last night.
found zilch.
but, in my dream last night i was going to some store or another, and on the way out, some chick seems really familiar.
after some thought i realize that its this chick bridget - rob's girlfreind from that time period (and carla's arch enemy, at the same time)..
after some more moments of indecision, i decide to say hi to her... and wanting for some small talk before asking about rob, ask her how she and stuff, walking her to her car through this.
she follows small talk and stuff, puts her stuff in her car, and we get ready to say goodbye, saying it was ice to see each other & all... and finally i ask about rob.
she replies that she was wondering whether or not i was going to ask... and says that she hasn't heard from him since he moved away..
she drives off and i go looking for my car...
only i can't seem to remember where i parked it - because where i thought i did was another car..
i was searching for a couple of hours, with some random events happening, before realizing that my car must've ben stolen.....
some more really weird stuff went on after that, but its all too blurry...
so that bring me back to this morning.
the cup of coffee just didn't do enough, and the lack of job calls/emails is a bit disheartening.
i keep having these daydreams of how nice everything is going to be once i have a job and can have a savings account and stuff...
*bleagh*
something just better come through soon...
and damnit, i want to be excited about tonight!!!
i envy bill's excitement.
i so wish we were going to a party tonight... because the prospect of being outside all evening just scares me shitless considering my costume isn't the warmest thing around and my shoes not the best for walking.
*sigh*
and i keep thinking today is a wednesday and that i leave for NJ tomorrow...
