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elvendoll...i don't seem to have any! or at least, it certainly doesn't feel like i do...
overall, yesterday was a decent day.
the hormone spike still happened and it still sucked but i think the valerian helped, in that i could feel it, and it sucked, but it wasn't bad enough to make me act out instead of sucking up and dealing.
somewhere between being more aware that its soming and the valerian, i actually felt it kick in - there was one minute within which i started using expletives in my head and felt a pang of nausea - and realized i had no patience for humanity in any sort of way.
i sat out most of it and went to uno's by myself for lunch - which was a big feat for me, as i really dislike being at sitdown restaurants by myself, but felt like i couldn't hold down any other kind of food. usually, situations like that leave me sitting in my cube, unable to make myself move anywhere and feeling sicker by the minute.
towards the end of lunch, and my hormone spike, i got some good news - my loan was approved, which will relieve a lot of stress, and it was cool to have a plan work out.
after work, i headed off to class. there, i'd go from being okay and paying attention, to being okay and scribbling in my notebook, to being really anxious and restless and barely able to contain myself in my seat.
while i was in class, i got calls from![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
tobi and v.; one canceling plans and the other wanting to hang out, so i headed over to the enormous room after class. spent like 10 mins there before v. and a friend of his decided to go to another friend's house and convinced me to go with them. hanging out there was chill, and i made it home in time to be in bed by my bedtime, even if i stayed up for an extra hour.
waking up hasn't been the same since BM. somehow, i just can't readjust to the alarmclock, and as a result, i had to skip showering because i was running to late : /
i'm looking forward to tonight - good food and good company and hopefully none of the funk that is in my head right now.
tomorrow night should be good, too - seeing two people i haven't seen enough of lately.
and i have high hopes for this weekend. there's fun stuff planned and lots of work i need to do inbetween.
overall, yesterday was a decent day.
the hormone spike still happened and it still sucked but i think the valerian helped, in that i could feel it, and it sucked, but it wasn't bad enough to make me act out instead of sucking up and dealing.
somewhere between being more aware that its soming and the valerian, i actually felt it kick in - there was one minute within which i started using expletives in my head and felt a pang of nausea - and realized i had no patience for humanity in any sort of way.
i sat out most of it and went to uno's by myself for lunch - which was a big feat for me, as i really dislike being at sitdown restaurants by myself, but felt like i couldn't hold down any other kind of food. usually, situations like that leave me sitting in my cube, unable to make myself move anywhere and feeling sicker by the minute.
towards the end of lunch, and my hormone spike, i got some good news - my loan was approved, which will relieve a lot of stress, and it was cool to have a plan work out.
after work, i headed off to class. there, i'd go from being okay and paying attention, to being okay and scribbling in my notebook, to being really anxious and restless and barely able to contain myself in my seat.
while i was in class, i got calls from
tobi and v.; one canceling plans and the other wanting to hang out, so i headed over to the enormous room after class. spent like 10 mins there before v. and a friend of his decided to go to another friend's house and convinced me to go with them. hanging out there was chill, and i made it home in time to be in bed by my bedtime, even if i stayed up for an extra hour.waking up hasn't been the same since BM. somehow, i just can't readjust to the alarmclock, and as a result, i had to skip showering because i was running to late : /
i'm looking forward to tonight - good food and good company and hopefully none of the funk that is in my head right now.
tomorrow night should be good, too - seeing two people i haven't seen enough of lately.
and i have high hopes for this weekend. there's fun stuff planned and lots of work i need to do inbetween.
