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elvendolli drove to new jersey last night.
i was feeling rather crappy when i was leaving the house, and am almost (pleasantly) surprised the drive went uneventfully. my mood rose to 'normal' levels sometime after hartford, but then my throat was sore, do i didn't call![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
kittypie like i was planning to.
i'm not quite sure what happened to the cold. it was there, full force, on tuesday. wednesday i felt better, but then had the 'heart beating is sucking all of my energy' time on wednesday night.
last night i felt off, but not quite as bad, plus sinus pressure and headaches, and sore throat.
today, i have sinus pressure and runny nose, but everything else seems okay.
i spent a bunch of time hanging out with my mom and debbie when i got in... its interesting to see that debbie now stays up to wait for me, and resisted getting sent to bed until past midnight on a school night - i know i was staying up that late on schoolnights at her age, but i was doing it in private, rather then being told to go to bed every few minutes and saying no.
she's also old enough to laugh when i crack jokes that she opens herself up to (instead of getting pouty and crying like she used to) but she still doesn't try to think before opening her mouth.
and, i brought two sweaters with me, that i bought at the garment district for BM and never wore - and debbie's going to keep one, and my mom, the other. it feels neat to be giving out handmedowns instead of just receiving them : )
speaking of receiving, my mom has a down blanket that she let me sleep under last night - and it was nice and warm! its also bigger in size then my current one, so that could be adding to how warm it was - i'm not debating snagging it to bring home and bringing my old one back here for when i'm visiting. we'll see...
abi still sleeps in her crib instead of the adult bed in her room, but my parents have decided to lower the crib wall, so she can now get out of bed on her own.
before, she'd wake up, call to be taken out of bed, and i'd show up. she'd then make pouty faces and complain that i'm not our mother before letting me pick her up out of the crib.
this morning, she got up by herself, came into this room, saw me, giggled, and gave me a run-n-hug. *melts* so i guess there are some perks to them growing older, though i would turn her back into a six month old if i could.
she's starting to speak english, and she's going to nursery school a couple of days a week, and its very cute to see her say stuff she may or may not understand.
my stepdad is a little nuts.
he called earlier, while work stuff was being breaky, so i couldn't really listen to him, and was saying something about needing to be in shul tomorrow night, and if i'm inviting someone over, i should invite them to shul. *blink* i have no idea what kind of ideas his head is working with. of course, hearing he's going to be at shul also makes me think 'well... maybe debbie and i could rent and watch LoTR' (as long as my mom is willing to play lookout. yay for respect issues!)
curiosity usually gets the best of me, but i don't think i'm meant to respond to this latest meme, as the site keeps timing out on me. which is prolly just as well, as i really don't like their response options. from the last meme, i found it interesting that people were posting about wanting to know who had secret crushes on them, while for me, the urge was more to find out who has x-crushes on me - i'm perfectly ok with not knowing who may have a crush on me, but i'm much more curious about who i may have disappointed out of a crush.
speaking of crushes, i might see my bouncy-ball crush tonight, though the chances seem slim. bouncy-ball, because the crush dropped when there was interest back, and now that is seemingly gone and i'm crushing again. the question is - will it go away again if the interest is returned, or have i actually worked through the damage that was causing that?
reading the comments to this, i'm reminded of some things i'd blocked, and some things i hadn't...
blocked: when i was 14 or 15, my mom set me up on a date. luckily, i didn't like him at all.
semi-blocked: when i was 16, the LDR-boyfriend who'd dumped me the week before stayed at our house, and i'm fairly sure my mom thinks i had sex with him that night (we came close).
when i was 17, my mom was telling my evil twin, who was 21 at the time, that she should cheat on her marrying-type bf instead of breaking up with him to sleep with another guy - i was in the room and listening.
semi-blocked: when i was 17/18, my grandparents set me up with a boy. (i had mild interest but it wasn't reciprocated*)
when i was 18, i had a mistake crashing at my house. my mom was okay with the idea of there being a man staying with me, but thought it was wrong/abnormal/weird that we were not involved/having sex.
despite this "openness" i'd kept 99% of my personal like a secret from her up until 3-4 years ago (which coincided with the birth of my youngest sibling and my financial independence from her) - i never trusted her not to fly off the handle, do something absurd or threaten with some hold over my life.
* i actually wasn't interested at all at first. and then we came back to my grandparents' house and he noticed a stain on my grandma's ceiling. he asked for a wet paper towel, raised up his arm and wiped off the ceiling. something about that really hit the spot.
(and i'm really bad at remembering to make footnotes most of the time)
i was feeling rather crappy when i was leaving the house, and am almost (pleasantly) surprised the drive went uneventfully. my mood rose to 'normal' levels sometime after hartford, but then my throat was sore, do i didn't call
kittypie like i was planning to.i'm not quite sure what happened to the cold. it was there, full force, on tuesday. wednesday i felt better, but then had the 'heart beating is sucking all of my energy' time on wednesday night.
last night i felt off, but not quite as bad, plus sinus pressure and headaches, and sore throat.
today, i have sinus pressure and runny nose, but everything else seems okay.
i spent a bunch of time hanging out with my mom and debbie when i got in... its interesting to see that debbie now stays up to wait for me, and resisted getting sent to bed until past midnight on a school night - i know i was staying up that late on schoolnights at her age, but i was doing it in private, rather then being told to go to bed every few minutes and saying no.
she's also old enough to laugh when i crack jokes that she opens herself up to (instead of getting pouty and crying like she used to) but she still doesn't try to think before opening her mouth.
and, i brought two sweaters with me, that i bought at the garment district for BM and never wore - and debbie's going to keep one, and my mom, the other. it feels neat to be giving out handmedowns instead of just receiving them : )
speaking of receiving, my mom has a down blanket that she let me sleep under last night - and it was nice and warm! its also bigger in size then my current one, so that could be adding to how warm it was - i'm not debating snagging it to bring home and bringing my old one back here for when i'm visiting. we'll see...
abi still sleeps in her crib instead of the adult bed in her room, but my parents have decided to lower the crib wall, so she can now get out of bed on her own.
before, she'd wake up, call to be taken out of bed, and i'd show up. she'd then make pouty faces and complain that i'm not our mother before letting me pick her up out of the crib.
this morning, she got up by herself, came into this room, saw me, giggled, and gave me a run-n-hug. *melts* so i guess there are some perks to them growing older, though i would turn her back into a six month old if i could.
she's starting to speak english, and she's going to nursery school a couple of days a week, and its very cute to see her say stuff she may or may not understand.
my stepdad is a little nuts.
he called earlier, while work stuff was being breaky, so i couldn't really listen to him, and was saying something about needing to be in shul tomorrow night, and if i'm inviting someone over, i should invite them to shul. *blink* i have no idea what kind of ideas his head is working with. of course, hearing he's going to be at shul also makes me think 'well... maybe debbie and i could rent and watch LoTR' (as long as my mom is willing to play lookout. yay for respect issues!)
curiosity usually gets the best of me, but i don't think i'm meant to respond to this latest meme, as the site keeps timing out on me. which is prolly just as well, as i really don't like their response options. from the last meme, i found it interesting that people were posting about wanting to know who had secret crushes on them, while for me, the urge was more to find out who has x-crushes on me - i'm perfectly ok with not knowing who may have a crush on me, but i'm much more curious about who i may have disappointed out of a crush.
speaking of crushes, i might see my bouncy-ball crush tonight, though the chances seem slim. bouncy-ball, because the crush dropped when there was interest back, and now that is seemingly gone and i'm crushing again. the question is - will it go away again if the interest is returned, or have i actually worked through the damage that was causing that?
reading the comments to this, i'm reminded of some things i'd blocked, and some things i hadn't...
blocked: when i was 14 or 15, my mom set me up on a date. luckily, i didn't like him at all.
semi-blocked: when i was 16, the LDR-boyfriend who'd dumped me the week before stayed at our house, and i'm fairly sure my mom thinks i had sex with him that night (we came close).
when i was 17, my mom was telling my evil twin, who was 21 at the time, that she should cheat on her marrying-type bf instead of breaking up with him to sleep with another guy - i was in the room and listening.
semi-blocked: when i was 17/18, my grandparents set me up with a boy. (i had mild interest but it wasn't reciprocated*)
when i was 18, i had a mistake crashing at my house. my mom was okay with the idea of there being a man staying with me, but thought it was wrong/abnormal/weird that we were not involved/having sex.
despite this "openness" i'd kept 99% of my personal like a secret from her up until 3-4 years ago (which coincided with the birth of my youngest sibling and my financial independence from her) - i never trusted her not to fly off the handle, do something absurd or threaten with some hold over my life.
* i actually wasn't interested at all at first. and then we came back to my grandparents' house and he noticed a stain on my grandma's ceiling. he asked for a wet paper towel, raised up his arm and wiped off the ceiling. something about that really hit the spot.
(and i'm really bad at remembering to make footnotes most of the time)
