*yawn*

[elvendoll]

i had the hardest time getting up this morning.
in dream-logic, there were two alarms in my room, one of which came with my new blanket, and it worked differently from my regular alarm clock and it was somehow doing something weird to wake me up. yeah.

i'm never surprised by this anymore, but my mom is on crack.
after telling her a couple of times that i'm hoping to get myself a new down comforter over last winter (as i've had mine for over 10 years and its small/short), she randomly mentions having two just laying around - one which was a handmedown, and another she bought for her room, but that is too warm for my stepdad. when she told me i could snag one, she said the handmedown one is "bigger". well, i slept under the other one in jersey, and i just used this one at home, and i'm very perplexed by my mom's definition of "bigger", as they're the same size, and the one i didn't take was thicker *shakes head*
between heating and two down blankets, though, i was fairly set for the night - once i finally got to bed....

after i turned up the heat last night, my absolutely horrible mood faded, and gaelen coming home helped with that, too... he gave me some potentially good news, i gave him some potentially good news, and he said he's going to plop an actual mattress onto my bed while i'm in class tonight. w00t!

after that, i headed off to ceremony, where i had a fairly decent time. it was my first time out in what seems like a while (but probably isn't) and it felt good to be in a (familiar) social setting.
getting home took a bit longer then usual as i played taxi for three people, but it was all good...
unfortunately, partially as a result, i'm feeling like ass this morning. i need sleep. tonight, after class, i might go to bed early. like, before midnight early.

class.
boy, am i dreading it.
i did enjoy this week's reading - t.s. eliot. class discussion, however, can range from really good to fucking painful, and i'm beyond not looking forward to getting my paper back.

jamaica is looking good right now.
my grandfather got a decent quote, and we're waiting on my evil twin's mother to decide whether she's going with us - it would be nice to have someone there to keep my grandparents company (their relationship baffles me... i've never seen them be "friends" - they're either not communicating or bickering if left to their own devices), and to have a roommate that doesn't have my grandfather's snoring problem. but yeah, i'm so all about laying on a hot beach and reading to the sound of surf. (now? please?)
in a lot of ways, i feel like i am a different person then the last time i went to jamaica. i feel distinctly older, and i'm not sure i'm liking this. i'm curious if that'll change a bit once i get there, but last time, i distinctly felt like a little kid on a family vacation, and i'm not there anymore - even if i still won't be able to leave the resort property.

overall, i've been feeling a bit older. like there's an adult in me, somewhere, and its trying to push its way out. and in some ways, i know i'm resisting. i just don't feel ready yet.

i still don't have a halloween costume, and am taking suggestions - if i don't have something by next week, chances are, you'll be seeing a nifty little poll here.

oh, and the sinus headache i've had, on and off, for the past week+? it can go away any moment now - especially as i just popped two tylenol sinus.