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Oct. 23rd, 2003 01:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendollif i look at yesterday unemotionally, it was a decent day. yummy dinner with ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sol3, time doing homework, while around other people (thank you tafkar and ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-syndicated.gif)
quinnclub!), finishing said homework, and then nice snuggles before falling asleep.
but, the whole day is colored by two hours of being broken, and then having the 'i've been crying' feeling for the rest of the day (although i didn't actually cry).
it also really bothers me how much a sudden change of plans can throw me off, and how incapable i become of empathizing with others while broken. and while i know this happens, try to ride out the upset/angry feelings and keep as much of it as i can to myself, it still fucking sucks and i still feel like an insensitive dolt afterwards.
oddly, or not, a big part of yesterday's breaking was also because the initial change in plans involved shifting them to tonight - and tonight was reserved for going to yoga and doing homework. i couldn't shift yoga to yesterday because i need to make sure i have a big lunch and very light dinner before class, and my mood was so off i couldn't fathom sitting down with homework - and the idea of wasting a day and not do the 'me' things that i had planned was really throwing me off. once i pinpointed that and resolved not to skip yoga, i was on the way to feeling better.
oddly enough, finishing the school reading didn't have the usual sense of accomplishment to along with it. i think that's because the reading was much shorter then i anticipated and i still have the paper looking over my head.
so, i'm going to yoga tonight.
but, i also finished this week's reading already, and don't want to attempt to start work on my paper just yet, so in theory, i've got free time and am open to hanging out and/or movie ideas.
i think i like the mattress.
the jury will be out for a while, as i have very little knowledge of such things, but typically, if the surface i'm sleeping on isn't right, my hips hurt. it happens anytime i go camping, and a fair bit of the time when i'm not sleeping alone. and it didn't happen last night. in theory, its probably something i should ask a dr. about - and will prolly bring it up with my masseuse whenever i see him again - i just have negative desire to go to doctors at this point.
i still hate the layout of my room. the location of the bed makes it seem un-cozy, and i'm all about cozyness. at the moment, though, my pack-ratness and lack of good shoe-storage-space are getting in the way of the cozyness *grumble*
i have a feeling i'm going to take the cheesy way out of halloween and just be a 70's/disco chick. i've got most of the outfit already and the remainders should be cheap.
sol3, time doing homework, while around other people (thank you tafkar and quinnclub!), finishing said homework, and then nice snuggles before falling asleep.but, the whole day is colored by two hours of being broken, and then having the 'i've been crying' feeling for the rest of the day (although i didn't actually cry).
it also really bothers me how much a sudden change of plans can throw me off, and how incapable i become of empathizing with others while broken. and while i know this happens, try to ride out the upset/angry feelings and keep as much of it as i can to myself, it still fucking sucks and i still feel like an insensitive dolt afterwards.
oddly, or not, a big part of yesterday's breaking was also because the initial change in plans involved shifting them to tonight - and tonight was reserved for going to yoga and doing homework. i couldn't shift yoga to yesterday because i need to make sure i have a big lunch and very light dinner before class, and my mood was so off i couldn't fathom sitting down with homework - and the idea of wasting a day and not do the 'me' things that i had planned was really throwing me off. once i pinpointed that and resolved not to skip yoga, i was on the way to feeling better.
oddly enough, finishing the school reading didn't have the usual sense of accomplishment to along with it. i think that's because the reading was much shorter then i anticipated and i still have the paper looking over my head.
so, i'm going to yoga tonight.
but, i also finished this week's reading already, and don't want to attempt to start work on my paper just yet, so in theory, i've got free time and am open to hanging out and/or movie ideas.
i think i like the mattress.
the jury will be out for a while, as i have very little knowledge of such things, but typically, if the surface i'm sleeping on isn't right, my hips hurt. it happens anytime i go camping, and a fair bit of the time when i'm not sleeping alone. and it didn't happen last night. in theory, its probably something i should ask a dr. about - and will prolly bring it up with my masseuse whenever i see him again - i just have negative desire to go to doctors at this point.
i still hate the layout of my room. the location of the bed makes it seem un-cozy, and i'm all about cozyness. at the moment, though, my pack-ratness and lack of good shoe-storage-space are getting in the way of the cozyness *grumble*
i have a feeling i'm going to take the cheesy way out of halloween and just be a 70's/disco chick. i've got most of the outfit already and the remainders should be cheap.
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if i look at yesterday unemotionally, it was a decent day. yummy dinner with <user site="livejournal.com" user="sol3">, time doing homework, while around other people (thank you <user site="livejournal.com" user="tafkar"> and <user site="livejournal.com" user="quinnclub">!), finishing said homework, and then nice snuggles before falling asleep.
but, the whole day is colored by two hours of being broken, and then having the 'i've been crying' feeling for the rest of the day (although i didn't actually cry).
it also really bothers me how much a sudden change of plans can throw me off, and how incapable i become of empathizing with others while broken. and while i <b>know</b> this happens, try to ride out the upset/angry feelings and keep as much of it as i can to myself, it still fucking sucks and i still feel like an insensitive dolt afterwards.
oddly, or not, a big part of yesterday's breaking was also because the initial change in plans involved shifting them to tonight - and tonight was reserved for going to yoga and doing homework. i couldn't shift yoga to yesterday because i need to make sure i have a big lunch and very light dinner before class, and my mood was so off i couldn't fathom sitting down with homework - and the idea of wasting a day and not do the 'me' things that i had planned was really throwing me off. once i pinpointed that and resolved not to skip yoga, i was on the way to feeling better.
oddly enough, finishing the school reading didn't have the usual sense of accomplishment to along with it. i think that's because the reading was much shorter then i anticipated and i still have the paper looking over my head.
so, i'm going to yoga tonight.
but, i also finished this week's reading already, and don't want to attempt to start work on my paper just yet, so in theory, i've got free time and am open to hanging out and/or movie ideas.
i think i like the mattress.
the jury will be out for a while, as i have very little knowledge of such things, but typically, if the surface i'm sleeping on isn't right, my hips hurt. it happens anytime i go camping, and a fair bit of the time when i'm not sleeping alone. and it didn't happen last night. in theory, its probably something i should ask a dr. about - and will prolly bring it up with my masseuse whenever i see him again - i just have negative desire to go to doctors at this point.
i still hate the layout of my room. the location of the bed makes it seem un-cozy, and i'm all about cozyness. at the moment, though, my pack-ratness and lack of good shoe-storage-space are getting in the way of the cozyness *grumble*
i have a feeling i'm going to take the cheesy way out of halloween and just be a 70's/disco chick. i've got most of the outfit already and the remainders should be cheap.
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i so want to travel more.
i so want to go to prague in the spring. now that i have a mattress, i'm thinking of maybe getting plane tickets in the beginning of January, with the aid of present-money, although there won't be much of it this year. we'll see.
but, the whole day is colored by two hours of being broken, and then having the 'i've been crying' feeling for the rest of the day (although i didn't actually cry).
it also really bothers me how much a sudden change of plans can throw me off, and how incapable i become of empathizing with others while broken. and while i <b>know</b> this happens, try to ride out the upset/angry feelings and keep as much of it as i can to myself, it still fucking sucks and i still feel like an insensitive dolt afterwards.
oddly, or not, a big part of yesterday's breaking was also because the initial change in plans involved shifting them to tonight - and tonight was reserved for going to yoga and doing homework. i couldn't shift yoga to yesterday because i need to make sure i have a big lunch and very light dinner before class, and my mood was so off i couldn't fathom sitting down with homework - and the idea of wasting a day and not do the 'me' things that i had planned was really throwing me off. once i pinpointed that and resolved not to skip yoga, i was on the way to feeling better.
oddly enough, finishing the school reading didn't have the usual sense of accomplishment to along with it. i think that's because the reading was much shorter then i anticipated and i still have the paper looking over my head.
so, i'm going to yoga tonight.
but, i also finished this week's reading already, and don't want to attempt to start work on my paper just yet, so in theory, i've got free time and am open to hanging out and/or movie ideas.
i think i like the mattress.
the jury will be out for a while, as i have very little knowledge of such things, but typically, if the surface i'm sleeping on isn't right, my hips hurt. it happens anytime i go camping, and a fair bit of the time when i'm not sleeping alone. and it didn't happen last night. in theory, its probably something i should ask a dr. about - and will prolly bring it up with my masseuse whenever i see him again - i just have negative desire to go to doctors at this point.
i still hate the layout of my room. the location of the bed makes it seem un-cozy, and i'm all about cozyness. at the moment, though, my pack-ratness and lack of good shoe-storage-space are getting in the way of the cozyness *grumble*
i have a feeling i'm going to take the cheesy way out of halloween and just be a 70's/disco chick. i've got most of the outfit already and the remainders should be cheap.
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i so want to travel more.
i so want to go to prague in the spring. now that i have a mattress, i'm thinking of maybe getting plane tickets in the beginning of January, with the aid of present-money, although there won't be much of it this year. we'll see.
