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Oct. 27th, 2003 11:18 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendolli need to be more regular about taking st. john's wort, and maybe up my dosage a bit. this is the second night of feeling off, and tonight, i haven't yet started on the finishing touches i need to add to my paper. and feeling like shit about it isn't doing a thing.
its rather hard to feel depressed, know its all chemical, that everything is being exaggerated in my head, and not be able to stop it.
i feel like i'm dropping balls left and right and can't see them falling. financial stuff is on hold until early next week, and that's okay. the paper is nearly done. i've already done the majority of the dishes from dinner. i did forget/neglect to do laundry. the computer room is still a mess... a mess with my old mattress in it, to be exact. my room needs some work before its people friendly, but i should have time for that on Friday.
i keep running my hands through my hair.
i'm really hoping i start liking my hair more by the end of the week, because right now, i don't like it at all. when i look in the mirror, i can't get past looking like my mother and how poofy it is. i'm also really curious about how fast it will grow.
i don't regret cutting it. i think i needed to, even if i dislike the current stage, and i think its good for me to be thrown into two years of change.
its rather hard to feel depressed, know its all chemical, that everything is being exaggerated in my head, and not be able to stop it.
i feel like i'm dropping balls left and right and can't see them falling. financial stuff is on hold until early next week, and that's okay. the paper is nearly done. i've already done the majority of the dishes from dinner. i did forget/neglect to do laundry. the computer room is still a mess... a mess with my old mattress in it, to be exact. my room needs some work before its people friendly, but i should have time for that on Friday.
i keep running my hands through my hair.
i'm really hoping i start liking my hair more by the end of the week, because right now, i don't like it at all. when i look in the mirror, i can't get past looking like my mother and how poofy it is. i'm also really curious about how fast it will grow.
i don't regret cutting it. i think i needed to, even if i dislike the current stage, and i think its good for me to be thrown into two years of change.
