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[elvendoll]

being anxious makes me scattered.
i find it weird and almost ironic that both today's and Friday night's anxiety are from physical and not emotional triggers... Friday's was from stomach issues that centered in the same spot my anxiety does - its only happened a couple of times before, but it always triggers anxiety. today's is from having more coffee then food in my system, and i feel like i should've known better.
c'est la vie.

i'm now 3/4ths of the way through the day of the locust and i'm not quite sure what i think of it. the first half was definitely rough sailing - i just couldn't get into it. now, i'm a little attached to the characters, but not enough to really be pulled through the book. we'll see.

then, i have to do research for my final paper topic and write up the prospectus. i'm less worried about needing the research now, but i want to get as far into this as possible - before, i was running with 'i have a month to write this' and then my mental calendar solidified and showed a much grimmer picture - next weekend i'm jersey and preparing for the oral presentation. the weekend after that, i'm in vegas and will get nothing done. then there's the weekend of the 6th, and the week after that is going to be too busy to do anything more then final edits.
the other intimidating thing is that i might need to go to a library for part of the research. considering that i'm an english major, you'd think i like libraries, but i really don't...

there is good news on the roommate front - looks like autumnsshadow will be moving in - i met him and got really good roommate vibes & stuff, and am looking forward to when final details are finalized and i can stop stressing.

and there's more stuff i'll write about when my tone is less affected by anxiety...

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[xevb3k.livejournal.com]

Maybe your stomach and eating issues were originally caused by anxiety or depression. Sometimes, you don't notice that you're in such a mental state until it starts manifesting itself physically. I know I do that a lot. I can be depressed but not think it's a big deal until I start having issues with sleeping, eating, muscle pain, headaches, etc. Sometimes, those things creep up on you like that.

I know you've had trouble with Seasonal Affective Disorder in the past. Could it be the time of year?

[fermata9.livejournal.com]

there is good news on the roommate front - looks like autumnsshadow will be moving in - i met him and got really good roommate vibes & stuff, and am looking forward to when final details are finalized and i can stop stressing.


Glad everything worked out :)